Page 220 of Sinful Desires
I had so many feelings stuck inside me. Guilt. Fear. That dizzy kind of love that makes you want to run and stay at the same time.
And under it all, something deeper.
That need to be free.
Free to mess up without being shamed for it. Free to feel without a camera flashing. Free to find out who I was, without being told.
This song became that for me.
A goodbye.
Maybe for now. Maybe for good. I still didn’t know.
But I knew it was the last page of something I couldn’t carry anymore. And maybe the first page of something softer.
Something finallymine.
I was forged in flashing headlines, pain dressed up in gold,
Packaged pretty in the glitter, with a price tag on my soul
They called it love, they named it fame
But not a single one remained
I thought I’d burned beyond repair
Too hollowed out to ever heal
But you stayed inside the silence,
The only soul who made me feel real
I opened my eyes and let the world sharpen through the haze of low lights.
Beneath the gleam of designer suits and flowing gowns, familiar faces slowly surfaced. Some smiled, some blinked back tears, others simply stared, caught between breath and silence.
But none of them mattered. My gaze moved past them all, drawn to the one my heart had never once forgotten.
He stood in the shadows at the edge of the stage, arms folded, jaw set, his eyes fixed on mine with quiet intensity.
His expression was unreadable, as always, but his eyes betrayed him.
They told me everything.
Fingers curled tightly around the microphone, chest rising quickly, I sang the next verse for him alone.
You loved me in lavender light
Where stars sang and demons took flight
Not bound by time, or breath, or name
You stayed through loss, through praise, through shame
You found the girl the world let fade
And traced her back through all she’d faced
