Page 44 of Saving Tracey
I shook my head against his chest. "Please don’t. If I knew you were going to react this way, I wouldn't have told you.”
"It's bullshit that he thinks of me that way.” A little bit of hurt seeped into his voice. "I'm supposed to be his best friend. He got Lacie, didn't he? I knew how bad he wanted her, therefore I never made a move on her. I would have just fucked her and dumped her anyway, but I didn't want him to have to feel like he was taking my . . . seconds, I guess you could put it. It's not my fault he didn't act quick enough with you.” Trevor tucked his index finger under my chin and tilted my face up so I was looking at him. “I saw you, and I wanted you, Tracey. There were no questions about it. I would have done anything to make sure you were mine. He can be pissed off; he can let this ruin our friendship, but I willneverlet you go."
My chest swelled at his words as warmth spread throughout my body. He would never let me go. I liked the sound of that—loved it actually. I just didn't want to come between such agreat friendship. A bond that Kaleb and Trevor had shouldn't be broken over someone as measly as me.
Besides, I thought Kaleb loved Lacie.
I heard a car door slam, and the front door slammed shut a little bit after. "Young man, where have you been?!"
"Ignore her,” I heard Kaleb tell someone. "Let's go to my room."
"Kaleb, don't you walk away from me!" I winced. "I swear to you, boy, you are grounded, do you hear me?!Grounded!"
I heard Kaleb's bedroom door slam shut right as his mom finished yelling, and then Lacie's loud, obnoxious giggling started a moment later. Trevor kissed my forehead and slipped out of bed. "I'll be right back. Why don't you get a shower, hm?"
I reached out and gripped his wrist in my two small hands. He turned to look over his shoulder at me. "Please, just leave it alone.” I knew he was about to go confront Kaleb. "It's not worth it, Trevor. He doesn't need to know that you know. Please don't ruin your friendship over me."
Trevor turned back around, placing a hand on either side of my head where I was laying on the bed. He leaned in and slanted his lips across mine. My stomach erupted in butterflies. "You are more important than any friendship I could ever have."
I sighed and watched him walk out of the room, knowing there was no stopping him when he set his mind to something. I didn't want to cause a confrontation between us. I had a feeling that being on the receiving end of Trevor's anger would be pretty terrifying, and I would go into a full-blown panic attack—blackouts and all.
I went into my bathroom and closed the door behind me. I just hoped that they would be able to talk and not yell and scream at each other.
Chapter Twelve
Iwas in bed, and it was almost no time at all before I could hear Kaleb begin to yell. I cringed, pulling my covers up to my chin. I wanted to hide away from the world. This was exactly what I hadn't wanted to happen.
I didn’t want to come between Trevor and Kaleb.
"She's a fucking lying bitch, Trevor!” I flinched at his words. “Why in the hell would I ruin our friendship for some attention-seeking whore like Tracey?!"
I physically winced.Nice to know what he really thought of me.
I didn't hear what Trevor said, but I heard something fall over right after Kaleb spoke, and I only assumed that Trevor had knocked something over in his anger. I sighed and got out of my bed.
I needed to stop this. It was my fault these two were fighting anyway. If I had just kept my mouth shut instead of telling Trevor what had happened, had never called him, they wouldn't be arguing.
Turns out that I didn't need to break up their argument, though. Kaleb's mom came running up the stairs at the sound of their fight. "Boys! Stop it this instant!"
"I want Tracey out, mom!” Kaleb yelled at Miss Brinson as I entered the hallway. “She's a fucking lying cunt! I swear to God, she fucks up everything in her path! She needs to fucking go!"
I stumbled back as if I had been hit. My hip hit the table in the hallway with enough force to knock it over. Everyone's eyes swung over to me. My bottom lip trembled, and tears filled my eyes.
Lacie looked smug as hell that Kaleb was finally turning his back on me. Kaleb looked pissed and hurt that this shit was happening, and Trevor looked ready to murder someone—most definitely Kaleb—and poor Kaleb's mom just looked tired of all of the fighting.
Tears welled up in my eyes.I wasn't wanted anywhere. Not with my parents. Not in this world. Not here.
I turned around and ran for the stairs. I had to get out of there. I felt like I couldn't breathe. It was all too much for me. I wanted to escape it all, and I would be damned if someone would stop me this time. Fuck my promises to Trevor. Fuck it all.
I was done—so done—with this fucked up world that I was placed in.
"Tracey, stop!"
It was too late though. I was already running out the front door and down the street. I couldn't take it anymore.
Arms wrapped around my waist right when my feet met the asphalt and lifted me off the ground from behind. I immediately smelled Trevor's smoky scent, and I just slumped in defeat, my shoulders shaking with my sobs.
What was there left to fight for anyway?
