Page 19 of Stuck With My Rockstar Boss
This pulls at my heartstrings. I know what he means. I’m only a few years younger than him, but that pressure for women starts a lot earlier. Something to do with the fact our window to have children is shorter. And though I still have a lot of free-spiritedness in me, the idea of finding a partner sits heavy on my mind.
“So, here I am. No girlfriend, no interest in partying on tour. The only woman I feel comfortable being alone with is you and…”
That breaks my heart a little. It feels like he’s compartmentalized me into an untouchable category. Friend zone… “That’ll change,” I say, trying my best to be comforting.
Lucas nods but doesn’t reply. He looks out again at the river and then back to me. “Thing is, Mika, I’m not sure I want it to.”
I frown.
“What I mean is…” But he doesn’t continue.
I can tell by the look in his eye there’s something he’s yearning to say. Something that he can’t say because we can’t. “Lucas…”
“Listen, Mika. When we were out there tonight, singing together… did you feel it? Like electricity.”
“It was the music,” I try to excuse the feeling, but I know I felt it too.
“No, no way.”
I lean away from him and try to catch my breath.
“It’s gotta mean something that I don’t want any other woman to touch me, but the thought of you… touching me…” He licks his lips. Desperation in the corners of his eyes. “I want that so bad.”
I have to stop myself from smiling. If I smile, then he’ll know that it’s all I want too. Then we won’t be able to stop ourselves. “I’d lose my job, Lucas.”
“I know, I know…” he murmurs and runs his hands over his face. “I just had to tell you.”
I need to know what it feels like to touch him. What it feels like knowing that I’m the only person he wants to touch him. I scan the scenery; the riverfront has mostly cleared out. I don’t think anyone cares about a couple of people sitting here in the dark anyway. I reach out and put my hand on his knee. Lucas’s eyes dart to my hand and then to my face. He’s confused but smiling the tiniest bit. “Just…” I begin. I don’t feel in control of my body. I touch his cheek and turn his head toward me, the spikes of his five o’clock shadow prickling my fingers. “Just once, okay?”
Lucas’s eyes widen. He nods. “I promise.”
I lean toward him, our faces only inches apart. I look at his blushing lips. Lucas wraps a hand around my waist, pulling me closer.
And then I kiss him.
My body floods with relief. Like I’ve finally been honest with myself. This is all I have wanted. I’ve been avoiding admitting it to myself. But here it is as our lips bend and press, our tongues flick and dance.
I want Lucas Tremaine. Every little bit of him.
The kiss doesn’t seem to end. It goes and goes and goes. I wrap my arms around his neck, drawing myself as close as possible. I can feel the ripped chest I see every night on stage pulsing beneath his shirt. He feels strong and safe. I don’t know how I could possibly let go when he feels this good.
Suddenly, Lucas breaks the kiss and pushes his mouth up against my ear. His breath is ragged. “I’m hard for you, Mika.”
Shit. Shit. I can’t resist that. I run my hand along the inside of his thigh until I find the long mound of him at the crotch of his jeans, the denim so taut I’m afraid it will burst apart. When my hand connects with Lucas’s erection, he mewls gently against my ear.
I grip the sides of his head, running my fingers through his blond tresses and kiss him again. Harder, deeper. Like I want him to fuck me.
I had meant just one kiss. Not just one roll in the hay. But he’s right here and it’s too tempting.
I draw my lips away and whisper into his mouth. “We could…”
Lucas inhales deeply and his fingers press harder into my hips like he wants to leave marks.
“Just once we could,” I say.
He swallows and nods. “Just once, I promise.” He slides his hands down to my ass. “Let me have you, Mika.”
I’m pressed up against the door of our hotel room for the night. Lucas is devouring me, kissing me with the voracity of a starving man. Our fronts are pressed tightly together and his hardness has only compounded.
