Page 68 of Unmasked Anarchy
After a minute, he sets me down, and I slump against the trunk, letting my head lean back against the rough bark.Kael helps me put my jeans back on, then his fingers graze over all the cuts and scratches on my face.His knuckles are bloody, his lip split.
I think I am in love with him.
We don’t talk.Not for a long minute.Then Kael wipes the blood off my chin, and finally says, “Let’s get the fuck out of here.”
I nod.
Is it finally over?
We move out towards the group of bikers, all standing and assessing the damage.My eyes search for Gage, and I see him watching me, that same expression on his face.The one I don’t quite understand.I release Kael’s hand and walk over to him, stopping in front of him and reaching up, wiping blood off his cheek.
“We gotta talk,” he murmurs.
Yeah.We do.
I nod and we both turn, walking off towards the barn while the club figures out what the hell to do.There is a lot of chattering happening, and many wounded men that they’re loading up to get out.Some will likely need a hospital, but if I know the club, I know that they won’t go unless they have literally no other option.
Hospitals mean questions.
They don’t want to answer questions.
Gage stops at the side of the barn, and turns to me, pulling out a cigarette and lighting it.This is the moment it ends, I know it and he knows it.I just hope after today, he might not try to kill me just so I can’t be with anyone else.I need him to be the guy who saved me, just for a moment.
“You love him.”
It’s not a question.
I meet his brown eyes, and my heart breaks a little for the man I truly wanted to love.
God, did I want to love him.
“Yes,” I whisper.
He doesn’t flinch, but I see a pain flash through his eyes, a pain that hurts me.
“I know you want me to stay, Gage.I know you want this to work, but it’s not going to.We both know that.All we do is hurt each other.We live in a spiral of pain and I can’t do it anymore.I want to be loved.I need to be loved.I will be forever grateful for you, for saving my life, but I need you to let me go now.There is someone out there for you, a woman who will open your heart and make you see that the love you have for me is nothing in comparison.I want that for you, and honestly, I need it for me.”
He inhales deeply, his eyes never leaving mine.
I don’t know how he will react, it could go either way, but I am keeping everything crossed for a good reaction.
“He saved me out there.”
I straighten, shocked.I didn’t know that.
“Had my back to an SUV and some fucker came around behind, about to pull the trigger and blow my brains out.He risked his life to step away from what he was doin’, to kill that man so I didn’t die.Man like that, Sabie, is a man that will give up his entire world for someone he loves.”
Tears burn under my eyelids and all I can do is nod.
“I want that for you.That man ain’t ever goin’ to be me.”
The tears escape and roll down my cheeks.
He reaches up, wiping one away.“You weren’t really pregnant, were you?”
I shake my head.“I was just scared you would kill me.”
He goes silent.
