Page 35 of Love Unavoidable
Chapter 9
sadie
Ethan’s kisses are like nothing I have ever experienced before. His lips are soft but commanding as they toy with mine. The force of his mouth and the skill of his lips and tongue as he gains entrance to mine. I have been kissed before, granted it has been mostly by Aaron, but it has never felt anything like this.
I don’t know if it’s something different with him, or something different with me. But when he presses his hand against the back of my head and runs his tongue along mine, it’s like my first kiss all over again. Wonderful, intoxicating, arousing.
Have I not felt desire before now?
I have orgasmed, by myself and with Aaron, and it has been hot. Or what I thought was hot. But this, with Ethan, is like molten lava; I feel myself turn to liquid as my body molds to his. My heart racing, breath quickening, nipples hardening, core heating. This is an experience unto itself. Because no one has ever affected me like this before.
I stay outside on the lounger for a minute to try to cool my body heat and calm my racing heart.
How can he just get up and walk into the house like that?
He comes back out with the platter of chicken and I watch as he puts it on the grill. I hear the sizzle of the meat and the aroma of barbecuing chicken hits me at once. He closes the lid and leans down to the little fridge and grabs a beer. He opens it and takes a long drink, leaning against the built-in countertop next to it.
“I wasn’t going to drink alcohol, since you can’t. But I needed something to calm me down.” He motions to the large bulge in the front of his jeans.
“You’re the one who got up and walked way,” I say kneeling on the lounger to make myself taller.
“Don’t remind me,” he groans, then drains the rest of the bottle of beer and tosses the empty in the recycle bin and stalks toward me. He runs his hand along my cheek and into my hair cupping my head, the other steadies me at my hip.
“It’s not a personality tweak or whatever you called it,” I say.
“How would you know?” he says softly.
“How do you know you want to kiss me right now?”
“Look, you know I’m into you, I know I’m into you,” he says. “All I’m saying is maybe I control my urges for at least twenty-four hours beyond the time you were injured before I fuck you senseless. Or better yet, forty-eight hours from the time they released you from the hospital.”
“Like two days from earlier today?”
He nods.
“That’s crazy,” I tell him. “I feel fine.” I lean in to kiss him, nibbling on his bottom lip, then running my tongue along to soothe it. It barely takes a second before he is kissing me back. Grabbing my head gently and taking control. His lips hard, his tongue commanding, like my mouth is there solely for his pleasure. He picks me up off the lounge chair, I wrap my legs around his waist. But instead of bringing me in the house where I was hoping he would fuck me senseless, he sets me on the built-in counter near the grill. He slows our kiss and then pulls away.
“You are dangerous, gorgeous. And addictive.” He kisses the tip of my nose then turns to open the grill and check on the chicken.
“I feel like we are in this pattern where I want to fuck and you are holding back,” I say.
“We are.”
“And that doesn’t seem backward to you?”
Because it sure as hell seems backward to me!
“How very sexist of you.” He laughs. “I just, I want to take things slow. And other than to make sure that you are okay in the head, I don’t know why.”
“Well, let me be the first to tell you, if we are waiting for me to be okay in the head, this”—I wave my hand between us—“will never happen.”
He laughs again and finishes turning the chicken then re-closes the lid. It smells amazing. My mouth waters. I hadn’t realized I was hungry until just now.
Ethan comes to stand before me again. “How about this?”
I raise my eyebrows in response.
“We are at about forty-five hours left in the forty-eight from your release. Why not use that time to get to know one another better? I don’t have to go to work for a couple days, you are already staying here. Let’s see how it progresses. We can have fun with it.”
