Page 47 of Love Unforgettable
He takes another bite, then swallows before answering. “It’s a basic tenet of human relationships. Anytime you are questioning the integrity of the other person in the relationship with you, there’s a reason for it. The reason why you ask other people about it is because you don’t trust that your feelings of mistrust are valid. But they always are. It’s just your mind trying to fight it because you want it to be different.”
I’m floored.
I look at Remi, I know my mouth is hanging open and I don’t really care. She just nods at me in agreement. It’s not so much that I thought Chance wasn’t capable of such deep and pragmatic thought, or else that’s exactly it. But also, I think he’s just summed up why I’ve made every mistake I’ve ever made in a relationship.
“So, he’s going to leave me again?” I ask Chance.
“I can’t tell you that for certain. All I can say is you are right to listen to that nagging part of you that is questioning him right now.”
“Now I’m sad.”
“Oh, Pinkie, I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to make you sad,” Chance rushes to say.
“It’s okay. You didn’t make me sad. The situation makes me sad and there’s nothing I can do about that.” I look to Remi, feeling pathetic. The look she returns is equally pathetic.
“Can I still give him the benefit of the doubt?” I ask to no one in particular.
“Honey, you can do whatever you want,” Remi says coming over to give me a hug.
“I’m gonna go now, if that’s okay.”
“Call me if you need anything?” Remi confirms. I nod in agreement.
“I am sorry, Pinkie,” Chance says. “Dinner was amazing, thank you.” I smile at him.
“Hey,” Remi calls as I’m about to shut the door. I turn back and look at her. “He gets out of here tomorrow, so we’ll be at my house.” I dip my chin in acknowledgment, then leave to go clear my neighborhood grocery store out of ice cream and junk food. After which I will go home and cuddle with all seven of my dogs at once. Hands down, the best, most fool-proof cheer-up plan known to man.
