Page 177 of Love Undiscovered
“You just want to watch my ass when I walk away,” she says.
“Every day, baby. Every fucking day.”
* * *
We arrive at the BBQ a little late. Remi is still getting used to driving the rental car and takes it slow. It’s a little crossover SUV we had to rent since I can’t fit my casted leg into her little vintage Porsche. Truth be told, I’d much rather have her driving something larger, with more metal protection around her. But she loves her car.
I had a service driving me around for a while when I was in the wheelchair, but they don’t provide it any longer now that I’ve transitioned to crutches. I hate that Remi has to drive me everywhere. Which makes getting to drive myself again another thing I can’t wait for.
I’m living at her house, waiting for her to drive me places, and only making sixty percent of my previous pay, thanks to disability. It doesn’t get more emasculating than that. I try to make up for it by giving her as many orgasms as possible. Even if she doesn’t appreciate it, which I’m pretty sure she does. It helps to make me still feel like a man. I never would have thought losing the use of a limb, temporary though it may be, would have such an impact on my self-confidence. But it does.
We pull up outside my parents’ house. Remi shuts off the car and turns to me. “Do you need help getting out?”
“Pfft, no. I got this,” I say.
“Good,” she says. She gets out of the car and turns back to me before shutting the door. “Because I think I’m pregnant. And I’m freaking the fuck out. Audrey brought a pregnancy test with her today, I’m going to take it here at your parents’ house.”
She shuts the car door and strolls up the front walk toward the door. Audrey and Eliza were obviously waiting by the front door because it opens before she even reaches the stoop, and they quickly usher her in.
What the fuck?
I knocked my girl up?
She’s pregnant?
Fuck, yes!
I’m the man!
My leg may be weak, but my swimmers are strong.
Remi is mine. All mine. And soon she’ll be swelling with my baby and everyone will see my mark on her.
I punch my right fist in the air in victory, hitting the ceiling of the car. Which would hurt, except I’m way too pumped about Remi’s news.
Pregnant.
I bungle my way out of the car with my crutches and head toward the house. Feeling full of manly testosterone and all sorts of other anti-emasculating things.
Yeah. I’m the fucking man.
* * *
Remi
Audrey, Eliza, and I squeeze into the upstairs guest bathroom. The same one that Chance got me off in one of the first times I was here. I remember it feeling so strange that day. Trying to fit into this family and understand their close dynamic. Now it’s natural, because they feel like they are my family too.
“Okay,” Audrey says. “We each got a different one so we can be sure. Use as many as you need.” Audrey and Eliza both hand me their boxes. I sit down on the closed toilet seat and open each with trembling hands. I never would have thought the day would come that I would be taking a pregnancy test.
“You know,” I say. “I’m not even sure I want kids. I mean, I’ve never thought about it before. I didn’t even really want a relationship a few months ago. Now I’ve got this guy living with me and I might be pregnant with his baby. Don’t you think that’s a little fast?”
“Nope,” both Audrey and Eliza say simultaneously.
“We Bauers have always moved fast in love,” Eliza says. “I knew Nate was the one after our first date.”
“It wasn’t that fast for me with Mike,” Audrey says. “And I’ll tell you, Remi, you may feel like you have doubts, but there is no doubt in anyone else’s mind how much you love my brother. It’s all over your face when you’re with him.”
“But, that doesn’t mean we should have a baby,” I say.
