Page 131 of Love Undiscovered
“Thanks a lot. I could get upset about sex.”
“Youcould,sure. But you probably wouldn’t.”
I shrug my shoulders in return. She stays silent. Doing that thing to me again that only she seems able to do. I can’t handle it. I start talking.
“Okay, I get logically that I shouldn’t be upset about the bet. That it’s hypocritical. But I can’t help it. I’m hurt.”
“Remi!” Kat shrieks. “That’s wonderful, congratulations!”
I choke slightly on my wine, and she has to pat me on the back to help me work it down.
“I just basically told you my emotions have been stomped on and you say congratulations?”
“Yes, because you had emotions. And it hurt that they were stomped on. This is fantastic! It means you’re feeling something that you’ve opened yourself up.”
“Oh please.”
“For real. This is exactly what I wanted for you. This is what you avoid in life. And I know it totally sucks right now, but trust me, it’s a wonderful thing to just abandon yourself to a relationship. I promise.”
“Says the girl who just kicked her fiancé out for the night.”
“I know. Isn’t it great? Now we have the whole place to ourselves and we can talk total shit.” She smiles big, then moves to pour us each more wine, but the bottle is empty. “Huh,” she says. “That happened fast. Oh, and shit, we have to get our own wine if Brad isn’t here. Dammit.”
“Don’t move,” I tell her. “I’ll get it.” I stand and climb out of the hot tub. Grateful for the slight chill in the air that I’m hoping will cool my heated emotions. I get another bottle from her wine fridge and return back to the hot tub.
“Rem, the beautiful thing about kicking Brad out tonight, is that he’s coming back. Because we are committed, and he loves me.”
“You know that kicking him out is a little extreme, right?”
“Sure. But it’s not totally like that. I mean, I’ll text him in a few hours and tell him to come back so he can drive your drunk ass home. And so he can fuck my drunk ass until I can’t walk. Then go to sleep. He knows I’m mad. But he also knows I’m notmad. You know?”
“Kat, Chance made a bet!”
“Remi, we made a bet!”
“It’s not the same.”
“We are now talking in circles, woman, and that gets us nowhere.”
“Fine. At least let me be mad for a while.”
“Oh, absofuckinglutely, beautiful girl. For the next few hours, we are pissed as fuck.”
“That’s what I’m talking about,” I say as I take a big gulp of my wine and wash down three gummy heads. “I just, I don’t want to be vulnerable, you know?”
“None of us do,” she says. “It totally sucks ass.”
“So, how do I avoid it?” I ask.
“You don’t,” she says.
“Well, what if I get hurt?”
“You will.”
“Fuck, I don’t want to get hurt.”
“None of us do,” she says. “It totally sucks ass.”
