Page 104 of Love Undiscovered
He moves back over me and lowers his body to mine. My muscles tense. Everything else has been so amazing this far, please let this be good too.
“You okay?” he asks. I nod, then shake my head. He smiles. “Which is it?” He rubs the tip of his cock over my clit as he asks the question.
Oh, that feels good.
What if it stops feeling good?
I bite the proverbial bullet.
“I’m scared,” I whisper.
He kisses me again, on my forehead, on each cheek, on my lips. Then nuzzles the side of my face, and asks with a low voice, “Tell me, baby.”
“What if it’s bad?”
His body goes stiff, beads of sweat appear on his brow. “What do you mean by bad?” he asks. “Like you don’t think you’ll enjoy it? I think we’ve proven our chemistry is off the charts, beautiful. And I promise you’ll enjoy every second of it.”
I take a deep breath and let it all out in one big rush of words. “I know my timing isn’t the best, but I’ve not felt anything like this with someone else before. And by that, I mean I haven’t had an orgasm with another person, other than the one time with you. Only myself. And I was a little drunk with you before. And I’m not drunk now. So, this scares me.
“I’ve already experienced so much with you that I never had before. What if I have this with you and suddenly I know what I’ve been missing all these years. Then I don’t have it again. Instead of being okay with nothing because I didn’t know any better, suddenly I know exactly what I’m missing, because I’ve had it, and that’s going to make it even worse. Which is going to make me dependent on you and I already know better than to rely on anyone. That’s just foolishness.
“And before you say anything, I know all about oxytocin and how the brain produces it with sex and that’s automatically going to make me want to bond with you. I’ll be honest, I thought it was total bullshit before, but I kinda get it now and we haven’t even had actual penetration yet. So, can you imagine how it will be once we do?”
“Whoa, beautiful.” He rolls to his back, pulling me with him. “You’ve got a lot going on in your head right now. Let’s just relax a minute, okay?”
I can still feel his hard cock against me. Thank God he’s still hard. But I’m sure he won’t be for long if I keep this up. Which is what I wanted to avoid; I don’t want this thing between us going bad. Yet here I am causing exactly that to happen.
Fuck.
Chance runs his hands up and down my back slowly. Going a bit farther toward my ass each time.
“I didn’t mean to ruin the mood.” My voice cracks as I say it. I clear my throat but don’t continue talking.
“Remi, I’m in your bed and you’re naked in my arms. Nothing could be more perfect,” he says. My pulse speeds up when he says that. He keeps talking. “What do you say we try to get to a point where you’re feeling comfortable and then we’ll talk about things like mood?”
“I’m okay,” I say. I pause to think about it and realize right then that I am okay, and I want nothing more than for this man to fuck me.
Hard.
