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But now I don't know what to believe.

If any of it was real.

I know addicts. And they're full of shit.

"You care about her?" he asks.

"Yeah."

"You still want to make her happy?"

"Part of me does."

"Tell the other part to get lost. She made you happy, Walker. That's fucking rare. Get over yourself and get her back."

"What if I don't?"

"You probably won't. You've been a fucking idiot about it. No reason to believe you'll change."

"Then why this talk?"

He shrugs.

"You want to help."

"No shit."

"You want to believe in love."

He shakes his headyou're crazy.But there's something in his eyes. He does.

"You want to get a drink?"

"Not if I'm gonna have to cart your plastered ass home."

I chuckle. "You're more fun than you let on."

"Don't tell anyone."

"I won't."

"You know I'm gonna keep lecturing you."

"I know." Part of me hopes he gets through to me.

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