Page 246 of The First Time
"Because it's the only thing you do besides work?"
"Because it's easy to remember and hard to confuse." His fingertips graze my neck. "Do you have another word in mind?"
"No, I guess chess is fine."
"Good." He brings one hand to my hip. The other goes to my lower back.
His fingers close around my zipper.
Slowly, he undoes my dress and pushes it off my shoulders.
Cold air hits my skin, but it does nothing to temper the heat racing through me. I'm on display for anyone on a nearby balcony. Anyone at the park.
For him.
The thought makes me hotter.
There's a power in being looked at. I never noticed it before. But I can feel Blake's gaze on my skin. Even with him behind me.
He unhooks my bra and tosses it aside.
He slides his hand over my chest, cupping my breast and rubbing his thumb against my nipple.
Mmm. He's way too good at this.
I lick my lips. Tilt my head. Press my neck against his mouth.
He scrapes his teeth against my skin. It's soft. A tiny burst of pain. But that only wakes up my nerves. It makes everything sharper.
Blake lets out a low grunt as his hands find the edges of my panties. He bends to slide them to my ankles.
I step out of them. Somehow, I stay upright. These heels are sturdy. Comfortable even.
"I'm in charge now, Kat. All you need to do is feel."
My sex tightens. My body gets light.
The thought of giving up control terrifies me.
And thrills me.
I… I don't know if I can do this.
But I want it so badly.
It's on my tongue.Chess.
It's a strange thought. And a strange word. But I can't give up now. I have to do this. I want to.
"I… what if I can't handle it?" I ask.
"You can."
I don't know why, but I believe him.
"Do you want me to fuck you?"
"Yes."
