Page 52 of The First Time

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But that will fucking ruin everything.

I turn the bottle over and watch the pills fall into the toilet. Watch them get sucked down the drain as I flush them.

I toss the bottle in the trash.

I expect to feel remorse, but I don't.

If anything, I'm relieved. The high isn't what I want. It's fake. It's hollow.

This thing with Piper is bad news.

But it's real.

And it's full.

And I'm fucked, because I really fucking like her.

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