Page 183 of The First Time
He moves backwards instantly, like it's a reflex.
"If you don't want me there, say that." My exhale is heavy. "Just tell me the truth."
"It's not that."
"Then what?"
His eyes go to the floor. "When my dad said those words, 'your mom is in the ER, she ODed,' I felt like I was going to fall into pieces so tiny no one would ever be able to put them together again. I still do."
"You won't." I won't let him.
He looks up at me. His expression is remorseful but his voice is even, confident. "My mom... this has been an inevitability forever. And I'm not different. One day, it will be me in that hospital. And I don't want your heart breaking when you hear that message."
"Kit."
He shakes his head. "I've been kidding myself. This is what happens to people like us. I can't do that to you."
"But—"
"I can't take away your spark, Piper." He swallows hard. "I'm sorry, but this is how it has to be." He moves closer. He pulls me into his arms and plants a goodbye kiss on my lips.
I'm not sure how I know it's goodbye, but I do.
When he releases me, he goes straight to the door.
Then he's gone.
