For it to not matter.
It's going to take time.
But that doesn't mean it needs to hang over us.
I know how to relax her.
I sit at her desk. Wake her computer. Pull a few albums into a playlist.
There.
She lets out a sigh of contentment as a familiar guitar riff fills the room.
"This is my favorite song now." I turn back to her.
"Good taste."
"I think about you every time I hear it."
"Since last night?"
"Since always."
"Oh. Well, good."
"It's not on your desk."
"Add it."
I pick up a silver sharpie. "I'm not sure I can."
She nods. "It's tradition. People I care about write on the desk."
"I see your handwriting and Kaylee's."
"There aren't many people I care about."
"Just sounds like a made up tradition."
She laughs. "That's how all traditions start." She motions to the desk. "Pick your favorite part and write it."
I do. I scribble the lyrics that make me think of her.
Of us.
Of what I want to say to her.
"Read it to me," she says.
"I'll do you one better." I play the song. Skip to the lyrics I wrote for her. Adorn them with the perfect design as they play.
An ornate key next to a locked heart.
It's obvious.
But it's right.
She stands and moves toward me.