Page 263 of Breaking the Rules

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Fuck, I'm not used to feeling shy and awkward.

I have to do it.

Go for it.

"I was thinking." I step back. Fill the last liner with batter. Lick the spoon.

"Yeah?"

"Maybe… maybe we don't have the condoms yet."

He arches a brow.

"But that doesn't mean we can't…"

He stares back at me, hanging on every word.

Fuck, I have to say it.

I can say it.

I'm capable of fun and dirty and uninhibited.

I was once.

I will get back there.

My heart thuds against my chest.

My fingers dig into the plastic.

My gaze stays on the floor.

"I was thinking… that I want to suck you off."

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