Page 186 of Rock Me All Night
"No."
"His mouth?"
"No."
"And you allowed this because?"
"That's not a yes or no question." I take a step back.
"Why did you put up with that?"
"We both preferred it that way."
He stops dead in his tracks. "You don't... you're going to have to explain this to me."
"No, I'm not. It's none of your business, actually."
He stares at me with that same penetrating gaze. "If you don't explain it, I'm going to have to spend the entire night wondering."
"So spend the entire night wondering."
I turn and make for the exit. The mall is open for another half hour or so. I can disappear somewhere there, away from these questions that are so not Drew's business.
He catches up to me quickly. He grabs my wrist and pulls me back toward him. "Can I at least ask why?"
"No."
"Okay." He pulls me back into the store. He turns around so we're face to face. He stares at me like I'm a crazy person. "Have you ever?"
I bring my gaze to the floor in the hopes it will erase the feeling of being picked apart, but it doesn't work. I can still feel his gaze penetrating me. I can still feel the wheels in his head turning. He might as well just call me a freak and get it over with.
I pull my hands back to my sides. "It's complicated."
"It's not complicated. The guys you fuck don't finger you or eat you out."
Oh God... I take a deep breath. "Yes, and that is how I want it."
"How the hell could you possibly want that?"
"None of your business."
"How the hell do you talk someone out of that?" He takes another step toward me. So he's close enough to whisper.
"I move things along."
"And if he asks?"
"Do I need to reiterate how this is so not your business?"
"I'm just curious." He grabs my wrist. "Because I don't fuck a girl unless I get to feel her come on my face first."
A salesperson stares at us like he's watching a soap opera. He's within earshot and we're practically screaming.
We're screaming about oral sex in a furniture store. Who wouldn't stare?
I motion toward the sales guy. Drew shrugs like he doesn't care if the other guy can hear. He leans closer.
He brings his mouth to my ear. "You have no idea how much I want to throw you on that table and show you what you've been missing."
