Page 40 of Right Number, Wrong Man
Hailey
My ex said it’s disgusting and that it means I want to be raped. I explained that it’s not the same, but he didn’t understand.
Me
Your ex is an asshole.
That fantasy doesn’t mean you wanna be raped. It’s just roleplay and if you do it with a partner it’s called CNC. Consensual non-consent. Emphasis on consent.
Across the street, Hailey’s shoulders rise like an invisible weight has lifted off her.
Hailey
THANK YOU! Omg, I’m glad someone finally gets it!! I want to feel safe enough to role play total surrender.
Me
So you’re into BDSM?
Hailey
I guess? This is embarrassing, but I’ve only slept with one man, my ex, and he was super vanilla. I want to explore the kink lifestyle, I just haven’t had the chance.
My fantasies always revolve around rough sex. Being used, abused, and taken.
I want to cross every line. I want to be uncomfortable and helpless, pushed to my limits and beyond. I want to feel alive.
Reading over her text twice, I soak in every word. I never thought the day would come when Hailey needs exactly what I can give her—and I didn’t expect it to feel so bittersweet.
I’m too hot and too cold. Elated and devastated.
When it comes to her, fate has a way of working against me. Mike is gone and I can have her, but only a piece of her, only for a short while until I leave. And only if I’m not myself. Again.
And yet for as long as we have together, I wanna be what she needs.
Her mask kink is great to keep my real identity a secret. I gotta figure out how to hide my voice for a meeting, but Cody might be able to help with that. Rumor has it that he was CIA once, though he’s never confirmed or denied it. I just know that he always comes through when I need him.
Me
I wanna make you an offer.
Hailey
One I can’t refuse?
Nice. AGodfatherreference.
As much as I enjoy our arguments, it’s incredible to talk to her like this, just joking around and flirting, having fun. Being open and honest with no hostile comments, no scathing remarks.
Me
How about I teach you the ropes of BDSM?
Hailey
Just like that?
Me
