Page 40 of Tops
His left hand was on the window, just slightly higher than mine. He removed it from the glass in favor of caressing my skin, weaving a slow path down my arm. I felt a touch on my neck before his hand rushed into my hair.
I hissed out as his fingers grabbed a large amount of hair and pulled. The wineglass slipped from my hand and fell to the floor. My heart slowed, or maybe it was time that slowed down. Either way, it felt like I was surrounded by a serene, peaceful calm, my internal dialogue put on silent. My head was bent so I could see Tanner’s smile.
“I will enjoy breaking your bratty side.” He winked and then released his hold on my hair. That was when I breathed again, and everything returned to how it should be. When his hand fell from my hip while taking a step back, it felt like my whole world shifted on its axis.
I needed to feel that again.
Whatever silencing rush I felt was something I needed more of, down to my soul.
Fuck waiting.
I turned to look for Tanner and found him as his lips crashed into mine, and my back was pushed against the transparent pane. He was everywhere all at once, caging me in. The magnets between us had officially aligned. Kissing Tanner felt like a gasping breath of fresh air when you’re drowning.
My fingers weaved into his hair as I desperately pulled him toward me, crushing me against the glass. I needed more. He slowed the kiss rather than moving it any further. Not what I expected as my body chased after him. He pulled away, and my fingers were reluctant to let go.
Backing away, he touched his lips with his fingers. His eyes promised me more while his lips curled into a smirk. He extended his hand to me, inviting me to join him. Leave the shattered glass on the floor and all the spilled wine. It wasn’t even a hard decision as I took his hand, and he led me toward the room Colten had disappeared into earlier. I felt the nervous fluttering of my stomach; maybe a large, heavy meal wasn’t the wisest choice before sex.
I couldn’t even lie anymore. I was here for sex.
The doorway led to a bedroom with an adjoining bathroom. Tanner flicked on the lights as he entered. They were soft and subtle but didn’t take away from the view from more floor-to-ceiling windows. They sat opposite a large bed, framed in bookshelves.
For once in my life, I wished I wasn’t a virgin. I wanted to have the time of my life with these men without feeling like this first time was a problem to be solved before the fun could begin. I heard the door shut behind me, and I saw Colten. His hair was still a mess from my hands getting tangled in it.
“How do you share?” I asked warily as I looked between the two of them.
Just go through all the basics. Who, when, why, where, and how? Who do you share? When do you share? Alright, that’s enough.My mind was running away from the reality standing before me. Two realities, and I wasn’t sure if they wanted me to pick or if I really would lose my virginity in a devil’s triangle.
“However, we want, usually,” Colten said, coming up behind me and wrapping his arms around my waist. “We get what we want in the time we have with you.”
Tanner didn’t move any closer, but a fire in his gaze aimed at Colten. They said they shared, but Tanner’s gaze reminded me of jealousy.
“I,” I started, not knowing exactly what I needed to say, but something needed to be said. Or explained. Maybe this part was less awkward after you had experience. Still, I wasn’t sure how to initiate, pick, or do whatever I needed.
“Get on the bed, Nessa,” Tanner said firmly.
Relief filled me, as I finally knew where to go. I slipped my shoes off before climbing up onto the large bed. I positioned myself in the middle before sitting down. Neither of them had moved to join me as they appeared to communicate with facial expressions.
Tanner turned first but didn’t join me. Instead, he sat down in a chair facing the bed. I looked to Colten, and his gaze was on me.
“Just Colten?” I asked in confusion. If I was going two rounds, I needed to know how to pace myself.
“Nik cannot make it this evening. As a consolation, I was hoping we could send him a video on the secure chat,” Tanner said with a smile as he pulled out his phone for me to see.
“We promise the video will never be shared or posted outside of the secure messages,” Colten added, with his full legal tone.
Part of me knew I shouldn’t allow myself to be recorded while having sex.
“Only for our eyes,” Tanner said possessively after seeing my hesitation.
I guess the thought of Nik opening that message and watching it was hot. I hoped he would be alone in his office.
“A yes to one of us is a yes to us all, Nessa. You’ve already said yes to Nik once. Say yes for him now,” Colten said as he came to join me on the bed. He cupped the side of my face with his hand before leaning in to give me a slow, sensual kiss. It only lasted for a moment, and when he pulled back, I wanted to grab and pull him right back against my lips. All this starting and stopping was killing me. Still, Colten smiled like he knew exactly what he was doing before waiting for my answer to Tanner’s question.
“This will work better,” Tanner said, getting up from the chair.
My head felt light as my gaze shifted to Tanner. A low hum had taken residence inside me as a mixture of anxiousness and anticipated excitement battled for dominance inside me. A light shined from the back of the phone, telling me that Tanner had hit record as he walked closer to the edge of the bed. I saw his wicked smile behind the phone, and my heart beat out in that hard, steady rhythm of excitement.
“Tell me no, Nessa.”
