Page 76 of Bound by Wreckage
Rhys just shakes his head telling me that if he gets me alone, he’s pounding the shit out of me. The guilt on my shoulders weighs medown, and I’d much rather get the pounding he intends than feel this way.
I killed my brother, and living with that… I don’t know how. It is a huge mark on my soul that will never disappear. No matter how many years that pass, it will always be there festering. With the way the brothers are looking at me right now, Rhys is looking at me, shame is all I feel. Helping Carsyn was the rightthing to do, that I can’t deny. But my actions have consequences, ones that will make living with them impossible.
My father sits back down at the head of the table and begins to bark orders out at everyone. Buzz is on computers. Deke, Green, Jacks and I are on recon. Coop, Ryker, and Breaker are setting up ears inside Buck’s place. Tug, Rhys, and GT are on ears once the others get themin place.
We’re all on Buck lookout while doing our other jobs.
“We need to find out where Big Jim lived and go through his place,” I say to Deke, Green, and Jacks as we leave the room. “And that Cary D.”
“On it,” Deke says, grabbing his iPad and plugging away at it.
“Let’s get supplies and move,” Jacks says, and we get busy. We have a lead, and it’s more than we hadbefore. Fuck me if I don’t want it to be true, though.
If I caused this, I’m not sure how in the fuck I’ll be able to live with myself.
