Page 35 of Bound by Wreckage
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Nox
My cell ringsas we enter the hotel room from Gunny and Sharon’s place. Looking down, my dad’s name comes across it.
I should’ve called him and told him what was going on and what I was doing. Ravage is everything to me, and not telling them is killing me.But I just know in my bones that if all the Ravage brothers would’ve come with me, Carsyn would’ve bailed out. She’s so skittish, and the last thing I wanted to was her changing her mind.
Inside, I’m torn. It’s wrong not telling them, but also right for Carsyn.
Fuck, this shit is hard.
Carsyn heads into the bathroom as I accept the call, already knowing what it’s about. Apit of dread fills me. I knew it was coming, and pushing it back in my head did neither of us any good. This is a clusterfuck of my own making.
“Hey, Dad.”
“Son, got your run with Jacks soon. You headin’ back?”
“Yeah. Planning on bein’ there tomorrow.”
Fuck. Leaving her is going to be hard. While I know Gunny and Sharon will take care of her, this possessive feelingfills me. I want to be the one taking care of her. She should just come back with me, and I’ll put her in the clubhouse until we figure out what to do next.
“Good. You alright, Nox?”
Exhaling, I answer, “Yeah. I’ll be there tomorrow.”
“Call me if you need anything.”
“Will do.”
The phone line goes dead. I drop it to the bed watching it bounce then land.
The bathroom door opens, and Carsyn walks out. Her eyes are a bit bloodshot, and it’s tearing me up. I never wanted to hurt her. Only help her however I can.
“Why don’t you come back with me to Sumner. You can hang out at the clubhouse until we figure everything out.”
A small smile lifts her lips as she touches my arm, the warmth shooting right through me. “I can’t. You know it justas much as I do. I heard. You have to go.”
“I…”
She does that finger over the lips thing again to stop my words. How can that one movement be so damn sexy?
“You have a life there. I don’t and if Buck knows I’m there, he’ll come after me.”
“I’d like to see him fuckin’ try.” I’d light his fucking ass up so fast just for the fear etched in her eyes right now.
Sheblinks, but the pain doesn’t go away. “You have to promise me something.”
“Not sure I can do that.” I’ve never made a promise I didn’t keep, and my guess is this one will be severely difficult.
She steps closer to me. “You have to. It’s what’s best for me and you. I need you to promise me that you’ll stay far away from Buck. If he thinks you have me, make him think otherwise. Idon’t care what you have to do, just promise me you’ll stay far away from him.”
My gut twists knowing I was right. “Babe, that puts a damper on me putting a bullet through his head.”
She doesn’t gasp or seem at all shocked by my declaration. While most women would have some kind of reaction, Carsyn doesn’t. She’s resigned.
Her hand comes to rest lightly on my chest givinga sight tremble. “He’s not worth you wasting your life over. I appreciate everything you’ve done for me. You’ve gone above and beyond anything I could ever expect from someone who doesn’t even know me. Thank you will never be good enough. But you can’t go after Buck. Promise me.”
“Why? If I wipe him out, you’ll be free,” I push.
