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Bile rises up my throat, burning as I try to push it down. This man hurt me in more ways than just physical, and I hate him. Hate what he and his men did to me. I can still feel the pain of when he took me, can still feel the guys holding me down by my arms and legs while I screamed out, trying to fight back. Every damn detail of what he did to me is etched on my soul foreternity.
My baby. I fight back the tears thinking of the life that grew inside of me for such ashorttime.
Pain spears through my heart, and the emptiness I feel in my stomachgrows.
Innocent. I can’t fight the tears as one falls out of the corner of my eye and rolls down mycheek.
A sharp pain comes to my side, and then wetness falls frommybody.
“Shouldn’t have givin’ you so much. Want you tofeelthis.”
“Please don’t, JK,” I whisper, just as another slice of pain comes. Then another. Andanother.
It would be better if Iweredead.
ChapterTwenty-One
“Right,”Cooper says into the phone then hangs it up. “Footage outside Austyn’s house shows her getting tasered. Two men carrying her off, the car leading right to JK’splace.”
“You’re fuckin’ shittin’ me,” Igrowl.
“We’re pullin’ off. Need to brief DadandGT.”
We pull off to the side of the road and get out, relaying theinformation.
The guilt weighs heavily on me. I brought this to them. Fuck, I brought thistoher.
“Knock that shit off right now. He’s doin’ this, not you,” my father says,surprisingme.
He’s blamed me for so long that this is unreal to me. Him not thinking this is my fault. That I didn’t lead all of this shit to the door of my family, even though it’s the last thing I ever wanted. And he doesn’t blame me? I can’t help wondering:what changed?Whynow?
I told him everything. He knows I didn’t just walk out on my family, that I had reasons. That’s whatchanged.
I only nod, unable to say anything else. I don’t feel the nod one bit. It’s been so long since my father said anything remotely positive to me that it seeps down into my soul, feeding that empty place that’s been there foryears.
Cruz starts making calls, rerouting all the other MCs to JK’splace.
Ryker runs his hand through his hair, looking up at the sky. “This isn’t fuckin’ happenin’,” he says to whoever’s up above. There’s no way to respond to it, but he repeats it over and overagain.
“We go in hot once they get here—all of us. We go in and get my girl. Don’t give a fuck who we take out, just make sure it isn’t you or the guys takin’ our backs. Brothers are all on their way,” Cruz orders, hopping onto his bike andmoving.
As much as the guilt rides me, I push it down, needing to focus on what needs to be done to get Austyn away from that fucker. Knowing what he did to me, I hate to even think what he could be doingtoher.
We set up post outside the place. Buzz shows up a few minutes behind us with computer equipment that he, Tug, and his twin, Breaker, are linking up. Bikes start rolling in from other clubs, none of who I know, so I stay back and let them do theirthing.
My hands twitch to get in there. Ryker is about ready to come out of his skin with each second that ticks by. Cruz, Cooper, and Nox are keeping a leash on it, but barely. Nox is close to the breaking point. I did catch myself twice going up to him, putting my hand on his shoulder, and giving it asqueeze.
He was fine with this and seemed to let out a breath every time. It’s a start atleast.
“Go time. In hot; take out everyone. No survivors. We’ll do clean up after,” Cruzorders.
We move hard and fast. The land the house is on is vast with guards everywhere. Nox and I take out two, while Cooper and Ryker take out the others. The trees around the place give good cover, keeping us on serious alert. Buzz is at the computer, watching the cameras to give us information, but that won’t do us much good if it’s a sneakattack.
Several other guys come onto our path, but we’re able toneutralizethem.
There’s no doubt the place knows they’re under fire, unless they’re underground because of the bullets flying. Therefore, we need tomovefast.
I look at my phone that has a map of the place that Buzz sent to all of us. We have the lower left quad, so we make our waythere.
