Page 13 of Sins of Seduction
“You’re not supposed to be in here,” she mumbled, the words falling from her lips as her hand curled into his shirt, desperate to hold on to him so her mind wouldn’t slip back into the darkness she wasn’t accustomed to. She had no idea why she panicked the way she did, but if she had to guess, it was a form of PTSD.
Seeing the dead body being carted off put her mind back to the day she saw her mom’s bloody body being carted off after a robbery gone wrong. She thought she had dealt with that time in her life, but the blood and the message proved otherwise.
Jax’s deep chuckle had her body melting further into him. The light feather touch of his fingertips against her bare legs relaxed her even more, and she had to fight with herself to keep from burrowing into him. It was wrong to take the comfort he offered; knowing their history, it was too easy to slip into old behaviors and forget that they were no longer together.
“That’s what you focus on, Rave? You gave me a scare there for a minute. I don’t think I’ve ever seen you in that state of shock before. Your whole body started to shake and then your eyes rolled before you collapsed in my arms.” She felt his lips against the side of her forehead, and she closed her eyes again, allowing herself to be pulled under his warmth.
Jax had met her a couple of years after her mother had been murdered, and they never really broached the subject of her death. When they met, Raven had worked hard to keep her footing in the world, her energy in Lush helped provide that strength. Jax wasn’t used to her being anything but strong willed, she could only imagine the confusion it gave him and the questions he and Detective Daniel Cruz were going to need answers to.
“Cruz won’t question you tonight, unless you’re up to it.” Jax, always the clever mind reader when it came to her, spoke softly. His fingertips still made lazy circles against her legs, and her gaze slid down to watch the way his big palm had wrapped around her calf.
Raven stayed quiet watching, mesmerized by the way Jax touched her with ease. All too quickly she became fully aware of his body underneath hers—the way they had been interrupted earlier from finishing what they had both started. She could feel him inside of her now, like a phantom sensation filling her to the point that her core throbbed. She shifted in his lap, and Jax’s hand wrapped around her shin, squeezing tightly.
The temperature in the room scorched her skin, and the sound of Jax’s quick breathing had Raven sitting up to straddle his lap. He didn’t stop her; in fact, he stretched his arms on the back of the couch, not daring to touch her.
Neither one of them said anything as Raven’s hands traveled down his chest, resting at the top of jeans. She hesitated as they stared at each other, waiting for either confirmation or for him to tell her this wasn’t a good idea, but Jax refused to speak. His eyes had a hint of mischief and understanding in them like he knew how desperately she needed to erase the fear that still lingered in the back of her throat.
Jax glanced down to where her hands rested before returning to her face with a cocky grin on his lips. Raven shook her head, fighting her own smile as she made quick work of undoing his jeans to release his cock. She gripped him with both hands, slowly stroking him, enjoying the way his gaze devoured her.
“How much time do we have?” she murmured, before letting her saliva slip out of her mouth to coat his cock.
Jax groaned. “Not long.”
Raven undid her bodysuit and lifted her hips. She never took her eyes off of Jax as she slowly lowered herself, inch by inch onto his cock. She dug her fingers into his shoulders, closing her eyes and letting her head fall back as her body welcomed him. He felt thicker down here than he did in the Paradise room, and her core pulsed around him—squeezing him as if she never intended to let him go.
Jax’s low growl rumbled through her body like thunder right after lightning struck, and he wrapped one arm around her waist the other buried in her hair as he lifted his hips up off the couch, burying himself farther into her.
Raven moaned his name, the feel of his teeth against her pulse had her grinding her hips faster against him—meeting him thrust for thrust. She was desperate to find her release, but a part of her wanted to slow this down and stretch it out. It had been a long time since Jax made love to her, and she felt bad for using his body to chase the shadows away.
“Don’t do that. Don’t pull away.” His grip on her hair tightened as his thrusts increased. Raven bit her lip to keep quiet, but the pleasure only intensified. She felt Jax everywhere at once—around her and crawling deeper inside of her. She couldn’t see or feel anything beyond the way his cock hit every part of her.
“Use me. Use my body,” Jax groaned. “Fuck, you feel so good wrapped around my cock, Raven. I can feel the cum dripping out of you.”
Raven’s body started to shake as she pushed closer and closer to the edge. Jax bit into her shoulder as he held her tighter. “That’s my good girl,” he whispered against her skin, and the bone-chilling fear she felt earlier slowly started to disappear, but a new panic set in just as her orgasm rushed through her.
She couldn’t get close to Jax Pierce again.
She couldn’t afford to let him in because she wouldn’t survive having to walk away again.
Tonight, before the cruel interruption, there had been a test of wills, and while Jax had shown her his hand, Raven had kept hers close to her chest. This wasn’t the beginning of their rebirth. This was just a hiccup for them, and as she slowly started to come down from the cloud she’d been, on she knew she was going to have to lock tonight away in her vault of things she missed and could no longer have.
Jax Pierce had her heart, but between the monsters that lurked in her darkness and their inability to get over their roadblocks, she knew she would never be able to hold on to him.
And when the blood spills
I’ll watch from a distance
And enjoy the way your mind crumbles
At the knowledge that I am out there
Waiting for you.
My pretty little Raven
No longer a predator in the sky
But an easy prey for a hunter
