Page 126 of Nodus Tollens
I could feel his eyes heavy on my face, but I couldn’t find the strength to look at him yet. Not when every emotion I’ve ever felt was pumping through me. Reactions like this were normal for me whenever I dove deep into the words of this book, but this was different.
This was Hayes’s viewpoint. These were his feelings and observations of the words that bult me. I then reluctantly glanced to the side of the definition and made out his writing. With blurred eyes, I took a deep breath before focusing on the black ink.
09-02-2023 9:43 p.m. – forever
At first, the day meant nothing to me. In my head, I tried to remember what had happened on Saturday, September 2nd,at 9:43 p.m., but it all became a blur. My memory hasn’t always been the greatest, but then it hits me.
The rally.
The day I ran into Hayes.
It was the day I met him.
Staring at the black ink, I couldn’t tear my eyes away from it. Forever, he had put.
“We won’t end, Blue.” He whispered against my head. “I can promise you that.”
I waited for the tears to fall. I waited for a breakthrough of choked sobs to fill the bedroom, but nothing came. Nothing but relief. Nothing but the need to have him entirely.
“Can I have that pen, please?” I asked.
Then, I had both the book and pen in my hold, and I began to search for one word in particular. I knew exactly where it was, so it didn’t take long before the words“Nodus Tollens”were staring at me.
“The realization that the plot of your life doesn’t make sense to you anymore…”
For so long, I’ve followed the same plotline and never wavered from the arc of my story. I thought for sure nothing would ever breach past the walls I had securely built around my existence until the sudden plot twist.
Until him.
And with the pen in my hand, I began to write.
“My greatest plot twist was you.”
I set the pen down on the bed, and instead of catching his reaction, I gave him privacy to take in my words. I could feel his chest expand from beside me, then ever so slowly deplete. Though nothing had been spoken yet, his silence held much more intensity. Knowing that I had rendered him speechless was a remedy to my heart.
An unmedically proven cure.
I had taken my head and rested it on his shoulder. It took him a minute to react, and when he did, he wrapped both arms around my middle and tugged me in close. So close that I could feel the wild tempo of his heart. I tilted my head back to look into his eyes. I wanted to see how they looked, but instead, I was captured by his mouth. He swooped in and latched his lips onto mine in a mind-bending kiss that caused stars to explode.
It could have caused moons to explode.
Tongue tangled with mine, he drugged me through his sweet, slow kisses. Everything about it was perfect and filled with so much love.
“I love you, Blue.” He mumbled across my lips.
Needing him closer, I unlocked his arms from around me and bravely climbed over his waist to straddle him. Hands locking onto his shoulder blades, I gazed down into a sea of green. Nothing was more calming, more serene than getting lost in his eyes, but I couldn’t help but roam the rest of him. From the neatly combed hair to his perfectly sculpted jawline, I was enamored by every part of him.
My stare danced over his stubbled cheek until it landed on his slightly parted mouth. A mouth that’s been all over me. My breathing went heavy as the memory of his tongue wreaked havoc on my brain. Even now, I could still feel the lightest of aftershocks from how he had made me feel that night. My core tingled. My skin went hot.
Could he see how badly I wanted him?
How badly I wanted him to have all of me?
“I want you, Hayes.” I confessed in a low whisper that had him flexing beneath me.
“You have me, Blue.”
Warm hands found my hips and slowly moved their way up my sides. His feather-light touch caused my whole body to shiver as a long breath fell past my lips.
