Page 35 of The Blue Rose
I uncross her arms and pull her into me. “It’s okay I do have one more you missed.”
She looks up with a pouty face, “Where?” I dip my head to my chest, her eyes follow my line of sight. “I can’t believe I forgot this one! I was looking at it when you took your shirt off, but was quickly distracted.”
“What do you think this means?”
She touches the blade that pierces my heart, trailing her finger down the blood. She looks at me with sad eyes, causing my heart to twinge. “I don’t want to guess that one, my guess is sad.” She looks back down at it.
I tilt her chin up to look at me, “Guess, Serena.” My heart racing at what I fear she may guess correctly.
She takes a deep breath, “The blade is piercing your heart, with it placed there your heart can’t beat… For anyone.”
I knew she would get it right.
Instead of answering, I pull her into my arms and stroke her head. She doesn’t ask if she was right, we both know she was. She nuzzles in closer and closes her eyes.
Once she is asleep, I sneak out of the bed, putting my clothes back on, and leave her room. I head to my car and sit there looking up at her house.
What the fuck am I doing?
I didn’t kill her, instead I went back to her place and fucked her. She’s still breathing, which wasn’t what I had planned for tonight.
She’s supposed to be dead.
Then she said she needed to text her friend my address, and I panicked. I can’t have anyone knowing where I live. I can’t have anyone finding my sanctuary. That’s why I drove her home. That's why I didn’t take her to my house.That doesn’t explain why I fucked her. She did ask me to choke her and that excited me. The only way I could choke her was to fuck her. Yeah, that’s why I did that.
I turn the music on, trying to drown out the thoughts plaguing my mind. “Shackles” by Steven Rodriguez starts to play through the speakers, as the lyrics drift through, I listen. Right before the second chorus plays I turn it off, thoughts of how true those words are, is frightening to me.
The moon is shining bright in the sky, the night so clear you can see every star shine, the complete opposite from what I’m feeling.
I roll all the windows down and I let the night air be my distraction on the way home.
THIRTEEN
SERENA
Iwake up to an empty bed, Aster nowhere in sight. The warmth that his body gave me, now feels cold. Did he leave after I fell asleep? Did he fall asleep with me? I enjoyed having him next to me, his arms wrapped around me felt safe, he felt like home. A feeling I haven’t felt since my mom was alive. A feeling I want to feel again.
Hoping he left after I fell asleep, I grab my phone to see if he texted me anything. When I look I see that I do have a message from Aster, I bite my lip to stop the giggle threatening to burst out of me.
Aster
Had a great night, until next time, little lamb
I smile, the soreness I feel anytime I move, being a happy reminder.
Serena
Me too.
Placing my phone on the nightstand, I stare at the blades spinning around and around.
We had a great time last night, learning a lot about one another, but I still want to know more. I don't even know how old he is yet.
Is that even important?
Of course it is, I can’t be dating someone twenty years older than me. That’d be like dating my dad, and the thought alone makes me gag. If he is way older than me; since I’ve already slept with him and started to catch feelings, I wouldn’t mind as much. Plus once I know his age, I’ll tell him mine. I think we’re close, at least he looks to be around my age. When was he born? I wonder if his personality lines up with his zodiac sign. I hope our signs are compatible. Given last night I’d say we absolutely are.
My hands lay across my stomach as I wonder why he changed his mind about going to his place, why he decided to take me home. I was pissed and hurt at first, then he made it up to me, with his dick. I was not expecting that monster cock to be attached to him. I have to admit it felt amazing, and we fit perfectly together.
