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She had loved him. Even as he failed her. Even when he disappeared into someone else’s arms, and someone else’s lies. She had loved him with the kind of grace that humbled and haunted him.
And now—she was gone.
He moved to her closet and opened it slowly, like a wound. The scent of her hit him full in the chest—floral and clean, like lilacs and warm cotton. He ran his fingers along her clothes, the scarves she loved, the delicate dresses she wore less often when the sickness took over.
In the back of the closet, behind an old shoebox, he found a sweater. The gray one she always wore when she was cold. He pulled it down, clutching it close. The fabric was soft, worn. It smelled like her skin.
And suddenly, he sank to the floor.
There was no hiding anymore. No mistress, no denial, no rehearsed apologies. Just the bitter reality of the space she left behind—and the man he had become without her noticing.
He thought of the children. Of how Ava flinched when he reached for her shoulder. Of how Caleb barely looked at him now. He didn’t blame them. He hadn’t earned their trust back. He had let them down as much as he had failed their mother.
But Lila… she hadn’t taken revenge. She hadn’t shouted. She had written letters. She had left truth in paper and ink, quiet as her own grief.
And that was her legacy: honesty wrapped in love. Strength in stillness.
Nate laid his head back against the wall and whispered into the dark, to a woman who would never answer.
“I didn’t deserve you.”
The room said nothing back.
But the silence held him accountable.
And maybe, just maybe, that was where redemption would begin.
Chapter 50
Where the Wind Speaks Her Name
The cemetery was quiet, kissed by the hush of morning. Rows of gravestones stretched out beneath a sky painted in shades of silver and soft blue. The sun hadn’t fully risen yet, but light filtered through the clouds in thin, forgiving strands.
Nate stood still in front of her grave.
It had taken him weeks to gather the courage. He’d come once before—with the children, stiff and drowning in their grief—but this time, he came alone.
There were no rehearsed words in his throat, just a hollow ache where they used to live. He shoved his hands into the pockets of his coat and stared at the polished stone.
Lila Hartwell
Beloved Mother. Gentle Soul. Fierce Heart.
He exhaled shakily, then knelt on the cold grass.
For a long moment, he said nothing. He couldn’t. His mouth trembled with things too heavy to speak.
Finally, his voice broke through the silence.
“I’m sorry, Lila.”
It came out hoarse, quieter than he meant. The wind caught the sound and carried it away like it, too, had been waiting to hear it.
“I failed you,” he said, fingers curling into the dirt.
“Not just once. Not just with Camille. I failed you every time I didn’t see you. Every time I walked past your pain. Every time I made you feel alone in a house we built together.”
He looked up at the sky, blinking against the sudden sting in his eyes.
