Page 77 of Rescuing Dr. Marian
None of it was true—or not true enough to keep me from joining him. The real reason was self-preservation. My only chance at surviving this “fling” was to weld a damned cage around my heart and drive sharp spikes into every inch of the metal grating. Getting to know his family any better would be a colossal mistake, considering there was no future between us.
Which was why my heart rate shot up when Tommy’s eyes pierced me across the now empty table in the SERA dining hall and he said, “You’re not saying no tonight.”
I played dumb, scrambling to come up with another excuse to beg off a Marian family visit. “To…?”
He bounced his eyebrows. “Maybe I’ll tell you back at the cabin.”
Oh.The lascivious expression on his face made the tension in my shoulders release.Definitely not a family thing, then.
I leaned in closer and lowered my voice, even though no one was around to hear. “If it’s something that’ll take place at the cabin, you have to know I’m not saying no to you.”
Tommy’s grin jolted something low in my belly. “Then what are we waiting for?”
As soon as we stood up, Chickie scrambled to her feet and fell into a natural heel next to Tommy’s leg. The three of us made our way back to the cabin, the low evening sun still plenty bright and the breeze blowing away the heat of the day.
Halfway back to the cabin, I reached down to grab Chickie’s collar. A few nights before, I’d caught an elk nosing around our cabin, so I wanted to play it safe.
“Sorry, Chickpea,” I said when she gave me her big eyes. “Better safe than sorry.”
I kept walking for a couple of paces before I realized Tommy had stopped in his tracks to stare at me.
“What?” I asked, looking around to see what had made him stop.
The look on his face turned melty-sweet, the kind of tender affection that made me wonder what the hell had happened to suddenly make him look at me like that.
“What is it?” I asked again.
He shook his head and continued walking to the cabin without a word. I shook my head and followed. The minute we were in the cabin with the door closed, he shoved me against it and kissed me wildly. His tongue carried the taste of hot fudge from the sundae he’d had for dessert, and I licked into his mouth, seeking more of it.
When he finally pulled back, I asked dazedly, “What was that about?”
His hand was still clutching the front of my shirt. “Chickpea! You got a SAR puppy and named her after my hummus, just like I suggested.”
Shit.Since he hadn’t put it together in the last four weeks, I’d figured he’d forgotten that part of our Hawaii conversation.
“That’s not… no, I…” I blew out a breath and knocked his hand away from my shirt. “Fuck off,” I muttered, moving over to my bed to kick my shoes under the edge of it.
Tommy followed me and pressed himself against my back, wrapping his arms around my middle and splaying his handsacross my stomach and chest. “Why can’t you admit it? It’s the nicest thing anyone’s ever?—”
“Don’t.” I put my hands over his but didn’t pull them off me. Instead, I caressed them with my thumbs. “If you tell me that’s the nicest thing anyone’s ever done for you, I’m going over to your family’s lodge right this fucking minute with some very choice words for every single person there.”
His laughter vibrated through my back. “Maybe I’m exaggerating, but I’m still…” He blew out a breath. “I’m touched, okay? Very touched.”
This entire conversation made me very uncomfortable. “I can think of better ways to touch you,” I growled.
He laughed again and turned me around to face him. “Which brings me to the thing I said earlier about not saying no.” Tommy’s eyes darkened, but I could also see a sliver of insecurity. “I want to fuck you. Or… or you can fuck me, although I’ll probably be a big giant baby because you have a massive bull-cock, but I’m happy to try.”
I snorted as my dick suddenly perked the fuck up at the thought of thrusting into Tommy’s sexy ass. “Are you missing the tight heat…” I stopped myself from the stupid tease about sex with a woman. “Sorry, that was crude and uncalled for.”
He lifted an eyebrow. “Also inaccurate, considering I’ve had the tight heat of your mouth many, many times the last week or two. And, just so you know,no. There’s not a single moment I’ve missed having sex with a woman. The shittiest orgasm I’ve had with you has still been ten thousand times better than any I’ve had with women.”
Tommy’s words shocked me. “Liar,” I accused, hoping it didn’t sound like the fishing expedition it was.
“Well…” He pursed his lips, considering. “Maybe you’re right.”
“Mpfh.”
A shit-eating grin split his face. “There haven’tbeenany shitty orgasms with you.” He slid his hands up and down my arms. “In fact, I was just thinking the other day that if this is what being with a guy is like, I’ve been missing out.”
