Page 50 of Craving You
“I know,” I say, trying to swallow my tears.“I’m sorry, Cameron.She didn’t deserve that.”
“Please don’t blame yourself,” he sniffs.“I can’t lose you too, Lori.I can’t.I’m afraid I won’t be able to save you.”
“I’m not going anywhere,” I sniff.“We will get through this together.I promise we will.”
I pull him toward me and hug him against my chest.He wraps his arms around my waist, and his body shakes as his cries echo through the bathroom.I rock us side to side as I rest my cheek on his head.I sense that someone is behind me, and I look back to see Remy is with us.He leans down and kisses my forehead, snapping Cam out of his depressed daze.
When Cam sits and rubs his hands down his face, I stand and back up so he can.“I’m sorry.I…”
“Shut up,” I say, handing him a towel.“Don’t apologize to me for having emotions.We all lost Beatris today, and you have just as much right to those feelings as I do.”
“I just… I fucking hate that she suffered,” Cam says as he steps out of the shower and dries off.
“We all know her stubborn ass was doing anything she could to piss the fucker off,” Remy says, making Cam and me smile.
“She lived to piss people off for fun,” I say.
“You and her both,” Cam adds with a smile.
“Move in with us,” Remy says to Cam.Cam looks from him, to me, and back to him before answering.
“Are you sure?”he asks.
“Absolutely.I know you don’t want to go back to the home you were supposed to share with Tris, and I think you two would heal better together than in different houses,” Remy says.“Also, I think it would help Lori a lot to have us both in the same house.”
“Nothing will make that better unless I have both of you right beside me,” I say with a sigh.
“Well, at least for now, he can sleep up here with us,” Remy says.
“I have mixed feelings,” I laugh.
“Don’t wanna snuggle with both of us?”Remy asks with a playful smile.
“It’s not that.I will still want to get fucked.I don’t know how that is supposed to happen if Cam is sleeping next to me,” I laugh.
“Same as before, only we’d have an audience,” Remy winks.I look at Cam, and he grins at me as he pulls on shorts.I shake my head at him before stepping past him and going into the bedroom.I spot my tea on the bedside table and smile.
“Wait, are you really drugging her?”Cam asks.
“I asked him to,” I say.“I don’t picture myself falling asleep on my own, and I know I need it.We all do.”
“Don’t drink just yet.I ordered pizza,” Remy says.“Start a movie and I’ll go grab it.”
“Mkay,” I say.I move to sit in the center of the bed with my back against the headboard and Cam sits beside me.I lay my head on his shoulder, and he relaxes.“Can I ask you something I probably shouldn’t?”
“You can,” he chuckles.
“Why were you… hard?”I ask.
“Because you are a beautiful woman, Lorelei,” he says almost cautiously.
“I was super afraid you were about to jerk off in my face,” I say.
“That would have been funny,” he laughs.
“If you came in my face?”I ask, laughing with him.“That shit hurts if it gets in your eyes.”
“Noted.Not in the face,” he says.
