Page 30 of Perfect Matcha
It felt intentional, that dodge. Theo hadn’t known he’d wanted the kiss before it was taken away, and yet it gutted him.
But then Camden’s hands were scraping down Theo’s back, and Theo wrestled Camden out of his Henley. Finally, their chests met. They were completely naked, naked in all the ways. Theo’s cockhead rubbed lightly over Camden’s shaft. Hurt feelings were momentarily forgotten. Nothing else existed but the wild sensations coursing through him. He grabbed Camden’s silky cock and Camden grabbed his.
The first inkling of an orgasm flickered in the base of Theo’s spine, but it took forever to bloom into something full-throated. He strained closer and closer to Camden until they were wrapped tight in each other, until he couldfeelCamden’s strong thighs and jacked arms and body hair and sweat.
The world blurred around him. Nothing mattered but slowly falling to pieces in the arms of Camden Ray. He shook, his body reaching and reaching for a precipice he didn’t fully understand but knew he wanted. Without conscious thought, he lifted his mouth toward Camden’s again, and this time Camden didn’t reject him. Their lips brushed. Camden gasped like he was in pain and kissed Theo hard, invading his mouth and his mind. Theo’s orgasm wrenched to the surface, and he flew.
It lasted longer than ever before. Theo was still trembling when Camden thrust forcefully into his palm and bit down on the side of his neck. Camden groaned and shot all over Theo’s stomach.
Theo tried to breathe, tried to calm the violent pounding of his heart. His orgasm had drained him. He managed to turn the prostate massager off without untangling himself from Camden.
Camden touched Theo’s shoulder, then the side of his neck. His hand was slightly sticky, and Theo assumed it was semen, which made his pulse flutter. He’d never been one for messy sex, but with Camden, in this scenario, he liked it.
He’d liked a lot about what had happened.
He’d liked all of it.
Eventually, Camden leaned back. “I’m sorry. We should have talked health and safety before that, even though what we did was incredibly low risk. I was tested about ten months ago. All clear.”
Theo’s stomach flipped over, and he fought a frown. He was hardly capable of speaking, much less carrying on a complex conversation, and he’d wanted to live in the glossy glow for a bit longer.
To be honest, he resented the abrupt body slam into real-world worries.
“Ten months is a long time. You’ve been with people since, right?” Theo had no idea why that was what he deemed most pressing, but he felt pretty proud he could string a sentence together. “I was tested at my yearly physical in November, and everything was fine.”
Camden rolled farther away and gingerly took his cock ring off. When he was done, he didn’t meet Theo’s eyes and warning sirens started to go off in Theo’s head. A confused knot of fear gathered in his chest. Something bad was happening here, but Theo didn’t know what it was.
“I haven’t been with anyone in over a year,” Camden said gruffly. He shrugged like it was no big deal.
Theo thought it was a very big, very shocking deal. Camden could have gone on any app, to any party, to any bar, snapped his fingers and told people to form a line. In fact, Theo had assumed Camden did that regularly.
Camden said things sometimes that explicitly gave Theo that impression.
“Are you telling me I’ve had sex more recently than you?” Theo asked.
Camden’s eyes flashed. “It’s not a competition. Plus, I’m pretty sure we’re even, considering we just came more or less simultaneously.”
Theo waved that away. “No. This doesn’t count.”
A long silence followed Theo’s words.
“Okay.” Camden’s face shut down, and Theo cringed.
He was screwing this up. In fact, this was one of his worst, most awkward postsex conversations ever, and he’d had some doozies. It didn’t make sense that it was happening with Camden, who knew him better than anyone.
Or maybe it made all the sense.
He couldn’t stop the words from tumbling out of his mouth, though. “So you’ve been celibate? Why?”
Theo had had dry spells that had lasted over a year, but Camden had always seemed to have infinite partners at his beck and call. If he hadn’t been with anyone in over a year, Theo had to assume it was by choice.
Camden blinked and got up on his knees. His expression was pleasant and blank, and Theo would have given anything to get back to that place of fiery intensity between them.
“I’m sorry. That’s none of my business,” Theo said. The no-secrets portion of the night was evidently over.
“We need to get this off you.” Camden gently loosened the lasso on Theo’s cock ring, taking an infinite amount of care. Theo’s chest ached, sharp and sudden. “I’ll let you get the rest,” Camden said, gesturing toward Theo’s groin to indicate the prostate massager. “And I’ll get us both a wet washrag.”
Camden climbed off the bed and walked toward Theo’s bathroom. As the door closed behind him, Theo was sure he was losing something he might never get back.
