Page 104 of Empowered
Until he moved herforher.
Men’s neckties were so versatile. They were especially handy for tying naked girlfriends to the bed so she didn’t have a chance in hell at touching herself – let alone leaving. Yet while Sarah expected him to have his final way with her, Lucas walked toward his bathroom, leaving her tied to his bed. “I need to take a break, Angel. I’m going to hop in the shower for a bit.”
“What?”
The water was already on. Sarah tugged on the ties. While she could most certainly break out of them if she wanted to, did she? Lucas had done this for a reason.He’s jacking off in the shower right now.So not fair. How was this supposed to help Sarah?
Trust him.
Sarah inhaled a deep breath and waited. She listened to the water spraying in the shower. She listened to the occasional sigh coming from the man she so desperately wanted to love. She felt her arms tire and her chest tighten.
I want to love him, but…
He had been so good to her. Good to her in ways she wasn’t used to. Sarah only knew men who used her, or made promises only to forget them the next day. Those were the “good” ones. The “kind” ones. The ones that didn’t traumatize her.
How low was her barometer whendoesn’t traumatize mewas the marking of an okay guy?
No wonder she didn’t know what to do with Lucas. He genuinely loved her, didn’t he? She had been so selfish! Putting him through so much… because of how messed up she was…
While Sarah didn’t cry, she did berate herself for focusing so much on herself, when sheshouldhave focused on the darling man willing to go through so much for her. They had met while she was at her lowest, and he hadn’t been frightened away. If anything, he had pursued her until she finally reclaimed her senses that said dating him wasn’t such a terrible thing that would cost her some sanity.
What had she done to makehimfeel better? Absolutely nothing. Because she was a mess.
She was willing to tell him that when he came back, naked and freshly washed. His cock was still hard enough to imply that the water had been cold and that he had not touched himself. Whatever his reasons for showering, it had nothing to do with not wanting to share intimacy with the woman he proclaimed to love.
“Luke…”
He climbed onto the bed, untying her hands and giving both a kiss. “I’m sorry. I needed to sort some of my thoughts out.”
“Hopefully nothing too terrible.”
He loomed over her, smelling so good that she was instantly lulled into a strong sense of comfort.How is it possible for someone to make me feel this good after so long?She slipped easily into his embrace, feeling so much better that it was no wonder they started kissing the moment they both fell back to the bed.
“I was thinking about how badly we need to make love.”
“Like this?”
“Like this, Angel. I gave you what you wanted. Now give me what I want.”
“What’s that?”
He parted her legs with his thighs. “All of you.”
No way did he mean her body. He wanted her heart, her mind, and that wounded soul desperate for love.
She was crazy enough to give them to him right now.
“I love you.” Lucas said that the moment he entered her.I had already forgotten how nice he feels there.Sarah was so wet and relaxed that he could do whatever he wanted to her. “I love you so much that I don’t care who knows it or what it does to my life.”
Sarah kissed him back with such vigor that she barely noticed the way he rocked into her.
It wasn’t hurried. It wasn’t desperate. It wasn’t anything like they had experienced when Sarah begged him to use her like so many men had used Angel.Except it was different. He loved me. He never hurt me. I knew coming out on the other side that he would still be here, wanting to dothiswith me.This was raw, intense, and full of need, but it wasn’t anything like the toxic bullshit Sarah suffered with because she didn’t think she deserved any better.
“I…” Her heart was with his as they made love. Such bliss was foreign to her traumatized brain, but she didn’t care. She would embrace it for the first time in her life.
If only she could say what she knew she now felt.
“It’s okay.” Lucas tucked his arms beneath her, lifting her torso and enticing her to wrap her arms tightly around his shoulders. The intimacy exploding between them was unlike anything Sarah had ever felt in her entire life. She knew what it was like to love unconditionally. She loved her mother and her brother unconditionally. Hell, she had a cat growing up that she loved unconditionally. She didn’t doubt she would love her children unconditionally. But this whole loving amanwith every fiber of her being thing? Parts of her couldn’t stand it.
