Why else would my mom be taken away from me just when I was starting my life? Just when I needed her the most? Just when I’d chosen to go away to school andchoseto walk away from her?
I always thought there’d be more time. More time later, more time in the future.
The future. That’s the really cruel part, now.
And screw whatIneeded. What about whatsheneeded? She always said the only thing she wanted was seeing her only daughter grow up into a woman.
But when she was diagnosed with cancer, it was fast. Everything was too fast.
It was all over before it even began.
So Cole and I, we both know what it’s like to be on our own.
But that’s not why I want him. That’s not what draws me to him, and him to me.
It’s something else. It was the look in his eyes the first moment I saw him. It’s the look in his eyes right now. It’s thewayhe looks at me.
Like he needs me.
“Val, baby girl, who do you belong to?”
His words are like a storm inside my mind, the crashing of thunder and the crack of lightning flashing behind my eyes, inside the synapses of my brain, making new connections, making my heartache like it could fucking bleed.
“You,” I say. I spin around, freeing myself from his grasp, because I want to see his eyes. But I hate that I pulled away from him. I want him to keep me, hold me, and I want to be still and calm and safe in his arms. “You. I belong to you. I know it’s crazy and fast but Iknowit.”
“It’s not crazy,” Cole growls. He puts his thumb under my chin. That swift, soft motion that I’ve come to know. I want it to be ours forever. “It’s the only fucking thing that makes sense, princess.”
He picks me up, and I wrap myself around his body, my arms and legs nearly quivering at the touch of his lips against mine. I feel his body against me - hisbigbody, all man and all ripped, corded muscle stretched over the pure power of a man who could burst at the seams of his own being. A man who can do no wrong. Who feels no fear. Who has no doubts.
And he carries me into the bedroom. My eyes are shut tight as he kisses me, but I feel the air around us shift and move against our bodies and I feel the gentle click of the door closing, metal against metal inside my ears.
“My beautiful girl,” Cole growls, laying me down on the bed. “Myqueen.”
“I thought you called me your princess,” I mewl, spreading my arms out around my head, letting my skin play against the feathery softness of his bed.
“You’re gonna be my queen soon.”
He cages his arms around me, hovering above my body. He captures my lip with his teeth, nipping against me, pulling, making me yelp and gasp.
“That’s so freaking hot,” I exclaim. “Oh my god!”
“Yes baby, you keep moaning for me. Remember how I told you I was going to cum inside your pretty little pussy the next time I came?”
“Oh, god yes Cole.”
“That’s what I mean when I say you’re not my princess anymore. I’m gonna cumdeepinside you, and you’re gonna know exactly how it feels to be my woman.”
“Cole, yes, I want that so bad.”
“But my sweetness, I want you to be okay witheverythingwe do. Do you know what I’m talking about?”
He presses his forehead against mine, and he spreads open my legs, pushing one up, bending it at the knee, anddragshis cock along my slit.
“Yes, I think so,” I breathe, “I’m on the pill. I take it to regulate my period. I take my pack with me everywhere. I’d lose track of it if I didn’t always have it on me.”
“Good,” he says, “because I want to give us time to talk about everything that comes with you being my woman. And I want you to feelsafeand secure when I sput my seed deep inside you. I don’t want to put a baby in you until you areready. And as much as Iwantto, I can’t do that to you now. I want you to besurethat the time is right for you. Forus.”
Hearing him talk about us having a baby together...how is this so sexy and beautiful?How?