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Subject: I wish I could help
Sam,
Your email broke my heart. I wish Erica knew how good she had it with you. How fortunate she was to have been your wife. Like what is wrong with her?? Can’t she see that she was married to the most amazing person? I would give anything…
Nevermind.
Anyway, it sounds like all you can do at this point is be there for Mikey. Raise him to be loving, caring, and a good man, like his father. It sounds like Erica needs to sink or swim. She has to help herself, but you need to be there for yourself and Mikey.
Write soon.
Love, Maria
P.S. I will never leave you again. Ever.
Date: January 30, 2007 2:10am
From: [email protected]
Subject: Thank you
Maria,
So I hope you are doing well. My life has been pretty hectic but I’m rolling with it. Your last email…well…it made me so happy. I am trying very hard to be the type of role model that Mikey needs and deserves. I hope that I can achieve that.
Just the other day, I was thinking about us. The odd situation we find ourselves in. Can you believe we started dating 17 years ago? You wrote The Chad letter 11 years ago. Or that we are in our 30s. I used to dream about what our lives would be like in our 30s. And I promise you, it wasn’t corresponding via email.
Do you think about what could have been? Or is it just me?
Yours, Sam
Date: January 30,2007 3:33am
From: [email protected]
Subject: re: Thank you
Sam,
I do. I think about it every day.
Love, Maria
Chapter twenty
Early 2007
Sam
My God, if I wake up one more time tonight, I’m going to lose it.
In a huff, I roll over and check the alarm clock on the nightstand. It’s flashing twelve o’clock.Good grief.A nasty cold front blew through, and the power must have gone out briefly at some point during the night. The wind has been relentless waking me up a dozen times, so it would be nice to know how much sleep I have left.
I haven’t been able to get my and Maria’s last two emails out of my mind.
