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Love, Maria
Date: August 14, 2006 5:21am
From: [email protected]
Subject: Yes, I think about it
Maria,
Yes, I do. I think about it all the time.
Yours, Sam
P.S. Maybe we need to take a break from emailing. Plus, Erica and I are getting a divorce. Well, a dissolution actually. It’s a long story.
Date: August 14, 2006 6:49am
From: [email protected]
Subject: re: Yes, I think about it
Sam,
If not writing is what you need, I understand. But I will miss my friend.
And I am so sorry about your marriage ending. This has to be so hard on you. You know you can talk to me about it. Or not. Whatever you need. I’m always here.
Love, Maria
Date: October 1, 2006 12:20am
From: [email protected]
Subject: I won’t stop
Maria,
We don’t have to stop writing. If I’m being honest, when it comes to you, as soon as we get close all over again, I’m afraid you will leave me.
And I know you won’t. I know that. But it’s always there. Maybe it always will be. And look, I know I have no right to say that considering I started this whole communication thing, this go around. I just want to be honest.
Okay, subject change. Mikey is like a freaking machine. He’s like 18 months now and has so much energy I can’t keep up. It’s insane. I haven’t updated you in a while so I thought maybe I should. Erica hasn’t really bonded with him. It’s sad to see. Just like Brielle is attached to you, Mikey is all about his daddy. Which I love, don’t get me wrong. Little dude can hang with me everyday. But, he needs his mother. And she isn’t there, even on the days that she is supposed to be. She’s always out. Always drunk. I don’t know how to make this better or fix it. I know that I can’t fix her, she needs to do that on her own.
I feel so lost.
Yours, Sam
Date: October 1, 2006 10:14am
From: [email protected]
