Page 55 of Suzanna's Surrender
“They’re fine, too. Sleeping. I didn’t even thank you before. Maybe it’s petty, but now that I’ve had a chance to settle, I can admit I really enjoyed seeing Bax’s nose bleed.”
“Anytime,” Holt said, and meant it.
“I don’t think it’ll be necessary again, but I appreciate it.” She reached out to touch his hand, and pricked her finger on a thorn. “Ow.”
“That’s a hell of a start,” he mumbled, and thrust the rose at her. “I brought you this.”
“You did?” Absurdly touched, she brushed the petals to her cheek.
“I stole it out of your garden.” He stuck his hands into his pockets and wished for a cigarette. “I don’t guess it counts.”
“It certainly does.” She had had two gifts that night, she thought, from the two men she loved. “Thank you.”
He shrugged and wondered what to do next. “You look nice.”
She smiled and glanced down at the simple white gown. “Well, it’s not lacy.”
“I watched you brushing your hair.” His hand came out of his pocket of its own volition to touch. “I just stood there, down at the edge of the garden, and watched you. I could hardly breathe. You’re so beautiful, Suzanna.”
Now it was she who couldn’t breathe. He’d never looked at her just this way. His voice had never sounded so quiet. There was a reverence in it, as in the hand that stroked over her hair.
“Don’t look at me like that.” His fingers tightened in her hair, and he had to force them to relax again. “I know I’ve been rough with you.”
“No, you haven’t.”
“Damn it, I have.” He fought against a welling impatience as she only stared at him. “I’ve pushed you around and grabbed on. I ripped your blouse.”
A smile touched her lips. “When I sewed the buttons back on, I remembered that night, and what it felt like to be needed that way.” More than a little baffled, she shook her head. “I’m not fragile, Holt.”
Couldn’t she see how wrong she was? Didn’t she know how she looked right now, her hair smooth and shining in the moonlight, the thin white gown flowing down?
“I want to be with you tonight.” He slid his hand down to touch her cheek. “Let me love you tonight.”
She couldn’t have denied him anything. When he lifted her to carry her in, she pressed her lips to his throat. But his mouth didn’t turn hot and ready to hers. He laid her down carefully, took the brush and rose from her to set it on the nightstand. Then he turned the lights low.
When his mouth came to hers at last, it was soft as a whisper. His hands didn’t race to excite, but moved with exquisite patience to seduce.
He felt her confusion, heard it in the unsteady murmur of his name, but he only rubbed his lips over hers, tracing the shape with his tongue. His strong hands moved with an artist’s grace over the tensed slope of her shoulders.
“Trust me.” He took his mouth on a slow, quiet journey over her face. “Let go and trust me, Suzanna. There’s more than one way.” Over her jaw, down the line of her throat, back to her trembling lips his mouth whispered. “I should have showed you before.”
“I can’t...” Then his kiss had her sinking, deep, deeper still into some thick velvet haze. She couldn’t right herself. Didn’t want to. Surely this endless, echoing tunnel was paradise.
He touched, hardly touching at all, and left her weak. His mouth, gliding like a cool breeze over her flesh, was rapture. She could hear him murmur to her, incredible promises, soft, lovely words. There was passion in them, in the fingertips that seemed designed only to bring her pleasure, yet this was a passion to give she had never expected.
He stroked her through the thin cotton, delighting in the liquid movements of her body beneath his hands. He could watch her face in the lamplight, feed on that alone, knowing she was steeped in him, in what he offered her. There was no need to strap down greed, desire was no less, but it had taken a different hue.
When she sighed, he brought his lips back to hers to swallow the flavor of his name.
He undressed her slowly, bringing the gown down inch by inch, wallowing in the delight of warming newly bared skin. Fascinated with each tremor he brought her, he lingered. Then took her gently over the first crest.
Unbearably sweet. Each movement, each sigh. Exquisitely tender. Every touch, every murmur. He had imprisoned her in a world of silk, gently bringing dozens of pulses to a throbbing ache that was like music. Never had she been more aware of her body than now as he explored it so thoroughly, so patiently.
At last she felt his flesh against hers, the warm, hard body she had come to crave. Opening heavy eyes, she looked. Lifting weighted limbs, she touched.
He hadn’t known a need could be so strong yet so quiet. She enfolded him. He slipped into her. For both, it was like coming home.
I could not have foreseen that the day would be my last with her. Would I have looked more closely, held more tightly? The love could have been no greater, but could it have been treasured more completely?
