Page 38 of Suzanna's Surrender
Laughing, she lifted her face to mine. “I shall wear ivory silk with a low bodice that bares my shoulders and a draped beaded skirt that catches the light. And my emeralds.”
“A woman shouldn’t look sad when she speaks of emeralds.”
“No.” She smiled again. “These are very special. I’ve had them since Ethan was born, and I wear them to remind me.”
“Of what?”
“That no matter what happens, I’ve left something behind. The children are my real jewels.” As a cloud came over the sun, she pressed her head to my shoulder. “Hold me closer, Christian.”
Neither of us spoke of the summer that was so quickly coming to an end, but I know we both thought of it at that moment when my arms held her tight and our hearts beat together in the dance. The fury of what I was soon to lose again rushed through me.
“I would give you emeralds, diamonds and sapphires.” I crushed my mouth to hers. “All that and more, Bianca, if I could.”
“No.” She brought her hands to my face, and I saw the tears sparkling in her eyes. “Only love me,” she said.
Only love me.
Chapter Seven
Holt was home for less than three minutes when he knew someone had broken in. He might have turned in his shield, but he still had cop’s eyes. There was nothing obviously out of place—but an ashtray was closer to the edge of the table, a chair was pulled at a slightly different angle to the fireplace, a corner of the rug was turned up.
Braced and at alert, he moved from the living room into the bedroom. There were signs here as well. He noted them—the fractional rearrangement of the pillows, the different alignment of the books on the shelves—as he crossed to get his gun from the drawer. After checking the clip, he took his weapon with him as he searched the house.
Thirty minutes later, he replaced the gun. His face was set, his eyes flat and hard. His grandfather’s canvases had been moved, not much, but enough to tell Holt that someone had touched them, studied them. And that was a violation he couldn’t tolerate.
Whoever had tossed the place had been a pro. Nothing had been taken, little had been disturbed, but Holt was certain every inch of the cottage had been combed.
He was also certain who had done the combing. That meant that Livingston, by whatever guise he was using, was still close. Close enough, Holt thought, that he had discovered the Bradford connection to the Calhouns. And the emeralds.
Now, he decided as he dropped a hand on the head of the dog who whined at his feet, it was personal.
He went through the kitchen door to sit on the porch with his dog and a beer and watch the water. He would let his temper cool and his mind drift, sorting through all the pieces of the puzzle, arranging and rearranging until a picture began to form.
Bianca was the key. It was her mind, her emotions, her motivations he had to tap into. He lit a cigarette, resting his crossed ankles on the porch rail as the light began to soften and pearl toward twilight.
A beautiful woman, unhappily married. If the current crop of Calhoun women were anything to go by, Bianca would also have been strong willed, passionate and loyal. And vulnerable, he added. That came through strongly in the eyes of the portrait, just as it came through strongly in Suzanna’s eyes.
She’d also been on the upper rungs of society’s ladder, one of the privileged. A young Irishwoman of good family who had married extremely well.
Again, like Suzanna.
He drew on the cigarette, absently stroking Sadie’s ears when she nuzzled her head into his lap. His gaze was drawn toward the little yellow bush, the slice of sunshine Suzanna had given him. According to the interview with the former maid, Bianca had also had a fondness for flowers.
She had had children, and by all accounts had been a good and devoted mother, while Fergus had been a strict and disinterested father. Then Christian Bradford had come into the picture.
If Bianca had indeed taken him as a lover, she had also taken an enormous social risk. Like Caesar’s wife, a woman in her position was expected to be unblemished. Even a hint of an affair—particularly with a man beneath her station—and her reputation would have been in tatters.
Yet she had become involved.
Had it all grown to be too much for her? Holt wondered. Had she been eaten up by guilt and panic, hidden the emeralds away as some kind of last-ditch show of defiance, only to despair at the thought of the disgrace and scandal of divorce. Unable to face her life, she had chosen death.
He didn’t like it. Shaking his head, Holt blew out a slow stream of smoke. He just didn’t like the rhythm of it. Maybe he was losing his objectivity, but he couldn’t see Suzanna giving up and hurling herself onto the cliffs. And there were too many similarities between Bianca and her great-granddaughter.
Maybe he should try to get inside Suzanna’s head. If he understood her, maybe he could understand her star-crossed ancestor. Maybe, he admitted with a pull on the beer, he could understand himself. His feelings for her seemed to undergo radical changes every day, until he no longer knew exactly what he felt.
Oh, there was desire, that was clear enough. But it wasn’t simple. He’d always counted on it being simple.
What made Suzanna Calhoun Dumont tick? Her kids, Holt thought immediately. No contest there, though the rest of her family ran a dead heat. Her business. She would work herself ragged making it run. But Holt suspected that her thirst to succeed in business doubled right back around to her children and family.
