“You can tell?” I sat down on the couch across from him.
“I’m not dumb. I bet even Willow can tell.” Milo brushed a kiss on our daughter’s head and slipped out from the cuddle. “Am I right in thinking it has something to do with Stacey?”
I sighed, nodding. “I just don’t know how to stop feeling like I am somehow betraying her by being with you and having her daughter grow close to you.”
“I know there’s nothing I can say. This is something you need to process yourself. But know that I understand.” Milo tilted his head. “Why don’t you get the tea from Hendrix I heard about? You can visit with Stacey in the between dimensions. Have her tell you that it’s okay to let her go.”
“I don’t know—”
“Feel free to tell me to stop talking but I think you may need to see her again.” Milo got off his couch and knelt on the floor in front of me, grabbing my hands in his. “Talk it out with her so that you can come back to me and appreciate what you have here on earth with me, your daughter, and whatever else your future may bring.”
I squeezed his hands, my heart clenching in love at the trust this man had in me. “You wouldn’t mind?”
“Honestly?” Milo shook his head, leaning down and kissing our combined grasp. “No. I would prefer you process this with her help than to continue to watch something dark hanging over you and our bond.”
“It’s that bad, huh?” A rush of embarrassment flooded me. How did I convince myself my mate wouldn’t notice my inner battle?
“Baby, it’s worse.” Milo’s lips turned up and he winked. “But I knew eventually you’d tell me what was wrong.”
“Then I’ll go talk to Hendrix and get the tea.”
“I’ll be here when you return.”
“I know.” I leaned down and kissed Milo gently on his adorable button nose. “I love you.”
“I love you too.” Milo gripped onto my shirt and held my face close to his. “Go get rid of this guilt. We deserve to be happy.”
Now, I just needed to build up enough courage to face my late wife and tell her I’d moved on.
11
Milo Mikolov
“It’s been weeks now and Nikolai still hasn’t asked you, has he?” I stood outside my friend Hendrix’s office and sighed. I knew the talented witch could help Nik heal the guilt plaguing him, if only he’d ask for it. Sadly, Nik’s mood hadn’t improved, so I had a feeling he was procrastinating asking for it. “He promised he would ask you for more of the tea.”
“Ah.” Hendrix placed the glass he was holding down on his desk and walked to me. “Come in and let’s have a little chat. Willow downstairs in the infant center for the day?”
I took a seat on the couch near the windows to the left of his desk. “Yeah. Nikolai is in training, and I had to do some work with Rayne. I thought she would be fine down there for a few hours.”
“It will do her well to be around the other babies. Their energies will mingle, and the bond of the coven will strengthen. They’ll need a strong bond when they are older.”
“You like to speak cryptically sometimes, don’t you?” I shook my head. “I want to hear more about that but right now, can you tell me if Nikolai has been around to speak with you?”
“He has not.” Hendrix sighed and sat beside me. “I will go speak with him today and offer him some of the tea.”
“You don’t have to—”
“I do.” Hendrix hovered his hand over my belly. “He needs to figure this out before this one is born.”
“What? How did you know?” I placed a hand on my flat tummy. “I only found out about it today myself.”
“I can see the lines of fate connecting you and your mate, but also the children. I recognized Willow’s signature but there was a new one. Tracing it to the source, I discovered your secret.”
“It’s not really a secret.” I shrugged. “I just haven’t had a chance to tell him yet.”
“I’ll make sure he drinks the tea.” Hendrix stood and I followed the action.
“Please don’t tell him about the baby.” I reached out and grasped his sleeve. “I need to be the one to tell him.”