Page 158 of There's No Us Without You
The smile that spreads over Will’s lips has my heart leaping into my throat. Sighing, he rubs a thumb over my bottom lip. “Good, but before anything else happens, we’re discussing your limits and safe words.”
“Limits?” I swallow hard.
“What you will and won’t do.” Will stares at me, his face now emotionless as always, as though this is just a regular discussion he has every day—which, of course, he does, apparently.
I must be so inferior to those that have come before me, assuming they knew what they were getting themselves into, and what they were doing.
“Ok, so how will I know what I will and won’t do?”
Will flicks through his iPad again, pulling up a new screen. “You’ll find a comprehensive list of things on there. I’m happy to answer any questions you may have.”
Jesus. He sounds so formal, like we’re in a business meeting, and he’s just going over the job description for me.
He smiles again and squeezes the back of my neck lightly. “We’ll go slow, okay? You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to.”
“I want to,” I say, scrolling through the list in front of me. “I do, it’s just this is all...” My words trail off as the list just keeps going.
“A lot?”
I nod and glance back over at him. He’s so damn handsome it makes my heart hurt. And I’m always wanting more from him, more than I think he can give me.
I want to know everything.
He hasn’t told me much of anything. I only know of the little bits and pieces I’ve gotten from Tyler mostly. I know their childhood wasn’t great. I’ve seen the pain behind his eyes, and I often see it when I look into Tyler’s eyes as well.
At least Tyler gives me little glimpses of things. Will is a closed door behind a brick wall. There’s no getting through, and even if I had a sledgehammer, it’d take me years to break through.
I glance back at the list. “So... these limits, are they for both you and Emerson?”
Anal fisting? What? Definitely not.
Will shakes his head. “No. These are mine. I have a certain way I like to do things in the bedroom, and I need to know I have your trust. Emerson doesn’t have the same... needs as I do. But when it comes to the primal play, and what you want from us, then these rules will apply to Emerson as well. You say your safe word, and it stops immediately.”
“Safe word,” I say, repeating the words. “And it can be anything?”
“Yes, but it needs to be something you wouldn’t normally say during sex. In primal play,noandstopare part of the fantasy, so you can’t use those as safe words.”
My heart is hammering in my chest, a mix of excitement and fear sending my nerves skyrocketing.
Will leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees. “And Eden?”
“Yeah?”
“We’ll be warming you up for the big one.” A smirk lifts one side of his mouth. “So when you’ve worked out your hard limits, come see me. I’d like to get started as soon as possible.” He stands and stalks towards the stairs, leaving me to melt from the inside out.
Doing this with Will and Emerson feels right. Like filling a hole I didn’t know was there until now. Something about the way they look at me has me imagining I can be confident in my own skin. I’m yet to feel full freedom when it comes to being naked, but I don’t believe they would rush me.
Half an hour later, and now a lot more knowledgeable on things I never knew existed, I have my limits.
Now that I know what I want, I want to explore those things with Will.
Emerson has mentioned that Will likes to tie people up.
So, I googled it.
Shibari—or rope play—has me intrigued. The thrill of Will restraining me in that way sends my body vibrating, and the more I think about it, the more aroused I get.
After taking a deep breath, I head to Will’s bedroom. I’m just hoping he doesn’t make me use my safe word on the very first time.
