Page 44 of Brandy Snap: Part Two
Drunk or not, I wanted to do whatever she told me. Even though it wouldn’t make up for what I’d done to her, either.
A moan echoed through me as she kissed me again, letting me give her all my weight and heaviness as she took charge.
Brandy’s kisses were too good, and I needed to get away. The back of my head thumped against the marble wall as I edged away, but she kept her claws in me.
“Okay, you can fuck off now,” I groaned, wiping my wet cheeks with the back of my arm, trying to hide my shame. “You got what you wanted. You win.”
But she just smiled as she drew me into another kiss, stealing my anger with her fucking softness.
Before I knew it, my arms were around her neck and I wasn’t letting her go.
Another wave of emotion pounded through me as I tasted vanilla on her lips and I deepened the kiss, trying to get rid of it. I didn’t want any of my alphas on her. I wanted it to be brandy and amaretto and nothing else.
I had no one. I’d been a naïve idiot when Sin bonded with me. I’d thought I’d found my perfect pack and I was going to live happily ever after, not have to deal with a third-rate interloper. Even though I was actually getting in the way of them all. No matter how much they insisted I was wanted, their families hated me, and I was so tired of fighting for fucking attention.
We kissed for so long that the stupid champagne had my head spinning as I looked up at her with blurry eyes as she pulled back from me.
“I just want someone,” I whined, shuddering as I clutched at her. “Why do Sin and Cas have people and I don’t?”
I hated drunk me. Drunk me was the fucking worst.
“What are you talking about?”
“Why does Sin get to be the one to protect you?” I choked out, rubbing my eyes again. “What about me? Why can’t I have someone who relies on me, who needs me? Someone who won’t leave me for another fucking omega?”
I needed to plug my mouth with hers again to stop any more cringey shit escaping.
“Kai, don’t you get it?” she asked, stroking my cheeks with her stupidly coarse thumbs. “I’myouromega. I’ve always been your omega.” Another whine echoed around the arbour as my heartspasmed. I didn’t believe her for a fucking second. “We shared the first bite, and we’ve been connected this whole time. The main reason I stayed was because I needed you so much that I couldn’t stand being apart from you.”
I snorted through my tears like some gross snotty bog monster. “Yeah, right. I’ve seen the way you look at Sin and Cas.”
“But I was yours first, Kai. You talked about me not listening to you, but can you hear me? I’m yours.”
Why did I have to whimper like that? Why couldn’t I brush her off like I always did? Why did I purr like a kitten as soon as she brought her lips to mine for the millionth time, and I sank into her like she was my fucking home?
I wished I could be with her without any of these bullshit complications. And by complications I meant the fact she slept with my alpha separately while Cas was with Camille instead of all of us together like a proper pack.
I gasped as she broke the kiss, clinging to her, bringing her back to me. I didn’t want her to leave.
“I need you, Kai. I can’t do any of this by myself,” she whispered as she scattered kisses on my cheeks and spun my mind. “I don’t know how to be an omega, or even what’s happening to me. I need you to accept me.” Her jaw clenched as she met me with a hard stare. “I don’t think I can do anything unless you’re with me.”
I was sure she was just stroking my ego and telling a drunk omega all the shit he wanted to hear so she could get me out of the rain. And it was fucking working.
She brought her lips closer to mine, sighing into me. “I bit you first.”
“Yeah, but I forced you into it.”
“Or maybe I was meant to bite you so we could end up here, together, with me telling you I’m so sorry for everything I’ve done to you.”
I closed my eyes, dragging in her scent like fucking air. “I’m the one who’s sorry, you idiot,” I murmured. “You have no idea what the fuck you even did.”
Her lips pressed against my eyelid so tenderly that I trembled at her touch.
“You’re going to ruin my makeup,” I grumbled at her, as if it wasn’t already fucked. But she ignored me, kissing my other eye.
It was when she wrapped her arms around my shoulders that I finally surrendered.
A deep moan cracked from me like a dying cat as I tried so fucking hard to hold on. All these pathetic whines tore out of me before I heaved in a breath and sobbed. Big fucking ugly sobs that I was going to cringe at for the rest of my life.
