Page 113 of The Depraved Prince
“Baby, you already have all of me,” he exclaims softly and gently. “Look at you bouncing on my cock like the fucking liar that you are. You can’t deny that you love me any longer. Look at your sweet tight cunt taking it all.”
Hayden spills inside me with a growl, his teeth lodged into my flesh. I look up at the ceiling as he gets his fill, staring at the painted murals.
I don’t know when it happened, but I’m dozing off while Hayden clutches me tight and takes us into his bedroom. Hecarries my drained body through the black halls. He closes the door, locks it, and the next thing I know, we’re both naked in his bedsheets.
“You’re going to die of heart failure when you turn twenty-three.” His voice trembles as he rubs his hand over my naked back in soft circles. I can’t move. I let the words of my future demise sink in, and I try to process the information.
“Have you given it more thought? Will you let me turn you?”
I suck in a breath, hoping it’ll relieve the tension all over. And it does, but only for a split second, but everything feels heavy again.
“I don’t know, Hayden. This life you guys live in is painful, brutal, and full of unpredictable horror. I wouldn’t be tied to you forever but to all the downfalls of being a vampire. A war has started between you and Cole’s family, and I think it’s far from over. Or what if you make more enemies? What if they try and kill me? What if we have children and they try to take them? What if?—”
He puts his hand on my mouth, hushing me. His brows pinch together ruthlessly like he’s in pain.
“I will always protect you. No would dare take you from me. And if they do, they’ll wish they hadn’t. Falling in love with you has made me see the world differently.This life, differently. Becoming a vampire was something I welcomed easily. I love life. I love waking up, knowing it’ll never be my last. But now? I’m terrified.” His voice is deep and full of stone. “I’m terrified of waking up and finding out your heart has stopped beating and your soul is no longer trapped inside me.My purpose is you. You are the reason why I want tocontinueto fall in love with life, but if you leave me for Death, pretty girl…” A black tear falls out of his eye as he tilts my chin up to meet his cold red eyes. He’s surrendering himself to me, letting me see his dark soul behind the shield he hides behind. “I will fight any God who tries to stopme from entering those gates of Heaven where I know you’ll be. And I will find a way to you, like I always did before and like I always pledge to do.” His declaration sends me into a mess. I want to open my mouth, but if I do, I’ll give in to him despite everything we’ve gone through.
“Spare me that misery and stay with me. Here. In this cruel world.” He climbs on top of me, pushing my hair out of my face. He looks at my lips with divine admiration and crashes his lips against mine. He enters me, slow and careful.
“Stay with me forever. Tell me you’ll see me next moon,please.”
“Hayden…” I close my eyes and feel them roll back from how magnetic and hypnotizing this man is. He thrusts in and out while he makes his promises. He kisses my neck, trailing kisses down to my collarbone.
“You’re perfect. God-like. You’re an addiction I’ve tried to break, but you won’t let me detox from your toxic possession. I will always see you next moon because fate is in your favor, and I no longer have any fight in me to pull away from you. I’m in love with you. I love you so much it scares me.” I cup his face with my hands and kiss him hard. Fire burns through the both of us. We’re two hurt souls coming together to make each other feel something good. It’s more than euphoric. Our tethered connection is powerfully blinding. I break the kiss, and it kills me not to keep our lips an entangled mess. I love him with all the broken parts of me. He broke me, like he’s been wanting to do, but not in the ways I thought he would. He broke my trauma and healed me in demented, everlasting ways.
“Don’t ever leave me, Hayden. Promise me that I can trust you. Promise me you won’t ever hurt me. Promise me that our love will last forever...and surpass your infinite lively sentence…just please don’t abandon me. Don’t leave me. Everyone in my life has left. Everyone in my life hurts me. But you haven’t. Willit always stay like this?” I whisper, searching for his answer vigorously with watered eyes. He grins that billion-dollar one that always makes me turn into his prisoner willingly.
“Millie…” He smirks. “Until the moon and sun collide and the oceans dry. I will love you infinitely.”
Hayden
She smilesafter I made love to her for the third time tonight. We interlock our limbs, and I hold her naked, warm body close to mine. Her hand trails my upper back right behind my neck. It’s the first and only tattoo I’ll ever have.
“When did you get this? It’s my handwriting…from my diary, isn’t it?”
Millie
“I got it a few days after you left.”
She kisses the tattoo and smiles against my tricep.
“Volo unum esse cum morte.”
My eyes circle, and if my heart could sink, it would.
She’s consenting.
She smiles harder and repeats the words.
“Volo unum esse cum morte.”
I palm her mouth with my hand before she can finish.
“Don’t,” I order her, forcing her to stop. Her eyes widen with hurt. Her brown eyes flicker with sadness and confusion. But I just smile and slowly let my hand fall from her mouth. Instead, I kiss her hard. I swear I’ve never felt so fuckin happy to hear those words fall from her mouth.
“But I thought? Why not?”
I trail my vision to her eyes, her lips, her perfectly swollen breasts, and finally, her lower belly. I place my hand on it and kiss her lips again. I wanted to wait to tell her this, but there’s no other perfect moment like this one.
