Page 78 of See You Soon
"I know you think I don't understand... and I can't imagine what you're going through." Emilia pauses and sits down at the edge of my bed.
"My mom had me when she was a teenager. Now look at her. I know you're not in your teens but still. She's still with my dad and they both have a successful marriage and careers. Shit like this happens and it's not the end of the world. You're a boss ass, hot, nurse with cheekbones and long black hair to kill for. You're going to be one hot young mom. You have your career set in stone. And I'm sure Danny will be right by your side through it all."
My frown turns into a smile. Emilia was always the friend that comforted me in dark situations. Meredith was the one friend that threw you in the fire and laughed. Then get an extinguisher.
"Would you like to see the ultrasound picture I got today? My baby already has all their fingers and toes, it's insane." I pull out the pictures from my pocket.
"Oh my gosh, that's crazy." Emilia yanks the pictures out of my hands and I watch as a smile pulls at her lips and her eyes light up with happiness.
I'm finally starting to enjoy my pregnancy journey. It feels good to share this experiencewith somebody.
Emilia and I could talk about everything and anything. She was ranting about the stress of her wedding yet she was excited about the date getting closer so she could enjoy her honeymoon afterward, with Harry. It was in a couple of days, just around the corner and I was so happy for her.
I vented to her about my pregnancy app and my current symptoms. Telling her all the names I've picked out for a boy and a girl. The baby was due sometime in the spring of next year.
Rain starts to pour down outside and I'm getting more and more sleepy as the night goes on. I encourage Emilia to go home. I reassured her that I would be fine and she could leave. I truly appreciated how much effort she puts into our friendship.
She leaves and I wave at her through my window. The rain starts pouring down harder and thunder erupts, making me flinch. The trees outside are swaying back and forth with lots of force from the winds. My window starts to scream like a ghost weeping. I'm startled by the sound of the wind trying to force my window open.
I decided to check on my mother before I fall asleep. I changed into my pajamas beforehand. I slip on a silky pajama set. It's a leopard pink pattern with shorts and a long sleeve.
My mother and I have started to keep the house cold even more now that I was pregnant. I was always hot.
I walk into the hallway barefoot, my bones cracking as I walk. Her bedroom isn't too far from mine and I slowly open it. She's sprawled out on her bed with her bible in her hands and rosary in the other, asleep.
I'm not surprised to find her with her bible and a picture of Paul in his uniform on her nightstand with the lamp on. I couldn't fathom the pain of a parent losing their child. I think I would die. Paul's death was getting closer to hitting one year.
I shut off her lamp and took her belongings from her hand. I exit her bedroom door after covering her lower half in blankets.
I do my nightly routine as usual. I make sure the doors are locked and all the lights are off. As I'm darkening the house, thunder strikes hard and I swear I can hear footsteps down the hallway. I stop in my tracks as soon as I hear the eerie noise.Shane? Shit.
I walk slowly toward the hallway, grabbing my brother's baseball bat that had been put away in a storage closet. The wooden floors creak as I walk closer to the hallway. I switch the light back on quickly, bracing the baseball bat, ready to strike.
The light reveals an empty hallway.
I really am going crazy.
I take in a deep breath, releasing the built-up tension that took over me. I put the baseball bat back into the closet and rush into my bedroom down the hall.
I climb into my bed and I tuck myself under the blankets. I toss and turn until I find a comfortable spot, listening to the rain and wind hit my window.
The weather outside brings back memories of Danny and me at his home during the hurricane. My heart warms at the thought of him and I’m tempted to start touching the fire crackling in between my thighs.
I touch my lower stomach and brushed my fingers slowly across my skin, wishing they were Danny’s instead. My belly was not yet showing but I was carrying his child and it burned.
It burned knowing I couldn’t tell him and the constant worrying about his safety. Violet's story gave me an insight into what kind of danger they put themselves in and I start to tear up.
It doesn’t take long to lose myself in my thoughts and I'm drifting into a heavy slumber.
Chapter34
ari
Iwake up to the sound of thunder. It jolted my body awake. There's no sunlight as my eyes struggle to open since the skies are still gray outside and I'm in love. I love the rain. It's still here, keeping me company and there's something about waking up to rain that relaxes me. I check the time on my phone and it's eight in the morning.
Placing it back down on my all-white nightstand, I turn and stretch my body out. I lift my arms and curly my feet. The smell of my mom's cooking fills the room and my stomach is rumbling.
Gotta feed the baby.
