Page 47 of See You Soon
"I hate you."
My heart drops and my eyebrows narrow inwards. I'm confused and thrown off by his words. It came out of nowhere.
"What? Why do you hate me? What have I done to you?"
"Exist."
Ouch.
My mouth goes dry and I'm trying to remain calm.
"Your existence alone brings me to my knees and I hate you for that. I hate that you've invaded every part of my mind. Before you, I was asimple man.Work, train, sleep, eat, repeat. I didn't have to fucking worry about anybody else. I hate that ever since I've got a taste of you, all I want to do is devour the rest of you. I hate that you’re Paul's sister because it makes it even more fucked up to want you. " Danny snarls at me, his voice raising louder in my ear. I jump every time he says the word,hate.
"Most of all I fucking hate that Idon't hate you." His palm collides with the wall behind me, causing me to flinch.
Danny's breathing intensifies.
"Well, I hate you." I snap back. Looking at him ferociously, I push him with my palm away from me but he doesn't move a centimeter.
"You're so fucking confusing! You make me feel things that I never thought were possible. Then you’re making me feel horrible… for what? Working at this hospital, as a nurse? I won’t apologize for trying to do something to honor Paul. You become this asshole every time I’m near!” I say, walking closer to him, closing the gap between us attempting to intimidate him but failing miserably.
His jaw clenches and I wince. My eyes shuttering closed then opening them again.
“You can’t be here and I’m going to make sure of it. Tomorrow I’m going to make some calls to have you transferred back.”
My eyes bulge.
“You can’t do that to me. You don’t get to do that to me Danny! I’m helping people and you need to accept that.”
“What you witness at the hospital is only a small fraction of the evil that awaits past this military post. You can’t be near me. You’re a distraction.”
I’m a distraction?
He pauses and licks his lips.
"I know you, Ari. I know deep down you’re fucking aching to feel what it's like to indulge in the sins that plague your mind." A smug look on his face and I know he has more intentions than he's leading on. He's trying to distract me from this heavy conversation. I understand it's painful for him but I deserve to get some answers.
"I want to know what Kane was implying." I’m silenced, unable to finish my sentence.
"I. Can't."
"You can't. Funny. Just like you promised you won't touch me again?" I challenge.
He scoffs. The sound was deep and mouth-watering, it sends shivers down my legs and between my thighs. God, even his noises just arouse me. I clench my thighs together trying to relax the throbbing pulsation in between them. I can feel myself getting wet.
Damn him.
"Exactly. I'm a man of my word. I won't touch you. But I know you want me to. I know the way you tremble when I say your name. The way you blush every time you look me in the eyes. Or when you bite your bottom lip when you get so flustered around me. I promise you that if I touch you again, if I give in to all the things I've thought about doing to you…you won’t ever want to leave me alone."He growls. I stand there taking in his request. Every hair on my body stands up with arousal and curiosity. Danny on the other hand is not moving an inch and I couldn't understand how.
Was I really going to give all of myself to him? The way he looks at me with such desire. His hot and cold behavior towards me that’s always so damn infuriating. The way I've always felt safe with him since the day I met him in that bar. It's unfair. It's a sin.He is the sin.
For the first time in my life, I don't want to think too hard about this. Every single decision I've made has always been well thought out and calculated. I've been raised to fear sex. To fear being naked around any man that wasn't my husband. To feel insecure about embracing sexuality which I've come to realize is a normal thing to experience at my age now. These kinds of things were engraved into the way I function like a permanent tattoo. For once, I refuse to think.I act.
I clear my throat.
“You’re wrong Danny. I think if I give all of myself to you,you’re the onethat won’t be able toleave me alone.”
He huffs out a breath, smirking so wicked, licking his teeth. He lifts his palm over my head, leaning on the wall behind me.
