Page 11 of Hard-Hearted Highlander
Rabbie didn’t know how to explain to his mother that words likecompassionandhopewere far beyond his capacity to fathom. He was merely existing, moving from one day to the next, contemplating his own death with alarming regularity.
His mother was accustomed to his surliness, however, and she didn’t wait for his answer, but turned and walked out the door of her sitting room, pausing just at the threshold. “Catriona will accompany you.”
“Cat!”
“Yes,Cat,” she said. “Your sister will be helpful in making Miss Kent feel comfortable and soothing any ruffled feathers.”
“Ruffled feathers,” he scoffed.
“Yes, Rabbie. Ruffled feathers. You have treated Miss Kent very ill.”
Rabbie shook his head.
“She’s a sweet girl. If you allowed yourself to stop thinking of your own hurts, you might be pleasantly surprised by her.”
Once again, his mother didn’t wait for him to say curtly that he couldn’t possibly be surprised by the likes of her, and quit the room.
Rabbie turned back to the window and stared blankly ahead. His mother’s words floated somewhere above him. His mind saw nothing but darkness.
* * *
WHENRABBIEEMERGEDin the bailey, having prepared himself as best he could to call on his fiancée, Catriona was already there, waiting impatiently for him. She was dressed properly, which was to say like aSassenach.Highlanders were now banned by law from wearing plaid. His father had taken that edict to mean they should dress as the English would dress in all things. His father had softened with age, an old man with a bad leg who wanted no trouble from the redcoats that appeared from time to time at their door.
Catriona had a jaunty hat on her head, with a feather that shot off one side like an arrow’s quill. It was a hat that their sister-in-law, Daisy, had given Catriona when she and Cailean had come to Balhaire after brokering the marriage offer between the Mackenzies and the Kents.
Rabbie paused next to her mount and looked up at her hat. “That is ridiculous.”
“How verra kind,” she said saucily. “Should I inquire as to what has made you so bloody cross today, then?”
“The same that makes me cross every day—life,” he said, and hauled himself up onto the back of his horse. He gave his sister a sidelong glance. “I didna mean to wound your tender feelings,” he said, gesturing to her hat. “You know verra well what I meant by it, aye?”
“No, Rabbie, I donna know what you meant. I never know what you mean.Noone knows what you mean anymore.” She was the second woman today to want no more words from him.
She wheeled her horse about and spurred it on, but then immediately drew up as two riders came in through the bailey gates. Seated behind each rider was a child.
“Who is it?” Rabbie asked as the riders turned to the right.
“You donna recognize them, then?” Catriona asked. Rabbie shook his head. “That is Fiona and Ualan MacLeod.”
The names were familiar to Rabbie, but it took him a moment to recall the children of Seona’s sister, Gavina MacBee MacLeod. The last he’d seen them they were bairns, Fiona having only learned to walk, and Ualan still toddling about on fat wee legs.
“Why are they here, then? Are they no’ in the care of a relative?”
Catriona looked at him. “Aye, the elderly cousin of a MacBee, I think. She’s passed.”
Rabbie’s gaze followed the riders with the children as they disappeared into the stables. “Who has them now?”
“No one,” Catriona said. “There are no MacBees or MacLeods left in these hills, are there? Aye, they’ve brought them to Balhaire for safe harbor until someone decides what’s to be done with them.”
Rabbie jerked his gaze to his sister. “Why was I no’ told of it?”
Catriona snorted. “Look at you, lad. Do you think any of us would add to your burden?” She sent her horse to a trot.
Rabbie looked back to where the riders had gone, but there was no sign of them. He reluctantly followed after Catriona.
The ride to Killeaven was quicker than by coach, which plodded along on old, seldom-used roads. Catriona and Rabbie rode through the forest on trails well known to them from having spent their childhood exploring the land around them. They splashed across a shallow river, then trotted up a glen, through a meadow. At the oldNa Cùileagancairn, they turned west and cantered across the open field where the Killeaven cattle and sheep had once grazed—but they were all gone, seized by the English and sold at market.
As they trotted into the drive—newly graveled—Rabbie noted the new windows and the repair to two chimneys. The weathered front door of the house swung open. Lord Kent, in the company of Lord Ramsey, strode out to greet them. Both men were dressed for riding. Behind them was Niall MacDonald. Slight and taciturn, he’d proven himself to be a keen observer. He was good at what he did for the Mackenzies—which consisted primarily of keeping his eyes and ears open and reporting back to the laird.
