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Pressure swelled inside of me, mounting quicker with each passing second. I was so close and I knew he was too. I felt his cock pulse and twitch, ready to release.
When he shot into me, I squeezed him between my walls. I shuddered from the way my climax, coupled with his, rocked me. Everything I held inside flooded out. It swept through my pores and floated on the surface of hot soapy water until it drowned, sinking to the bottom.
I sobbed against Knight’s shoulder and he held me tight. I needed those bands of steel around me, locking me in and letting me know his love wasn’t going anywhere.
“I got you,” he said into my wet hair. “I got you forever, Lumi. I’m not letting go.”
I believed him too. I believed him with more than logic. I believed Knight with my heart.
When we climbed out of the tub, he carried me into the bedroom and held me. There was no need for words to fill in the comfortable silence we’d achieved. I didn’t rush to call everyone and let them know I was home or what had happened. I curled up beside the love of my life and I recharged.
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CHAPTER 20
I missed a couple AA meetings after Lumi got home from Texas. I wanted to be there for her. It wasn’t just me either, Coco, Zach, and Lumi’s mother rallied around her in her time of need to show her she wasn’t alone and that we’d all be there when she needed help shouldering unimaginable grief. I’d never been more proud to be a part of such an amazing and supportive family.
I didn’t realize I’d shut the world out though. When Terrence called and said he really needed to talk, it brought home the fact that I needed to be there for my friend too. We decided to meet at a restaurant downtown near The Mystic Crystal.
“What’s up, Knight? How’s Lumi?” Even though I shut down everything else in my world to make sure I gave Lumi what she needed, I still kept T informed of everything.
“She’s much better. I’m proud of the way she’s bounced back. I’m just glad things weren’t worse.” My mind went back to the night I walked into her house and found her bloody and shrouded in darkness.
It felt like my world was being turned upside down.
The reality of losing Lumi set in and I found myself terrified of what life would look like. So many emotions crowded my chest. Fear and anger were chief though. I couldn’t let another second pass without telling her I was in love. All I heard in my mind were Mr. Wells’ words warning me not to let time pass without telling her. I saw why.
“Me too,” T said, lowering his gaze. “Losing a kid has to be hard. I can’t even imagine.”
“Me either. She doesn’t even want to have anymore after losing Kaiden and I don’t blame her.”
“Do you want any kids?” He asked, lifting an eyebrow.
“This world isn’t a place I want to bring innocent kids into. Me and Lumi are on the same page about that.”
“I never wanted kids,” he said, a slow frown tugging his features down. Terrence was the same age as me but he somehow looked younger. His brown skin and dark eyes were youthful even though he’d been through his own hell.
“Never?” I quizzed. “Not even when your wife was here?”
“No.” He took a long drink of iced tea and groaned a little. “That’s why I needed to talk to you, Knight.”
“Because…you want me to have your kids? I love you T but my door doesn’t swing that way.”
“No, asshole,” he chuckled and I was glad to see his expression lighten. “A couple of days ago, I was coming out of AA and this girl came up to me. Absolutely gorgeous. I thought it was my lucky fucking day.” Something danced in his eyes when he spoke about this mystery woman. It died quickly as it sparked. “She told me she was my daughter. My fuckingdaughter, Knight.” He scrubbed his face with his palms and groaned, sinking a little lower in his chair.
My ears burned at his words. “Daughter?” I blurted, narrowing my eyes, hoping it would help me understand better. “You believed her?”
“We sat in my car and talked. She pulled out an old picture of me and her mom from when I was twenty-one. Twenty-one. Man, I didn’t know my own ass from a hole in the wall back then. I was so fucked up. I was drinking doing drugs, running through girls like socks.” He brought his gaze to mine. “I don’t even remember her mother but I believe her. You know how sometimes your soul tells you something is true? Well, that’s what mine did when she started laying out the timelines.”
“Fuck, Terrence what the hell? Why is she coming to you now? Where is her mother? Did she ever try to contact you?” Questions tumbled from my mouth rapidly.
“Her mother died in a car accident a few weeks ago. She doesn’t have anywhere to live and her job pays minimum wage. She can’t live off that shit. Not without a roommate. She needs a place to stay until she can get on her feet.”
I shook my head at the unfortunate details and let my shoulders drop. “What are you going to do? That’s a lot to take in.”
“I know. I’m letting her stay at my place but it’s fucking weird. She’s a total stranger to me. She’s amazing and we talk all the time but I keep waiting for that connection parents have to their kids to pop up. It’s not there.” He shrugged his shoulders and sighed.
“How old is she?”
