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“It’s not like that. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve been able to sleep for the past two days or if it’s because I’ve been inside of you but my mind is clearer. I never deny facts when they’re right in front of me. I’m not stupid. The minute you laid down beside me, I went to sleep. After you let me inside of you, I fell asleep. I trust you with my life. I don’t sleep around anyone I don’t trust.
I let you come with me to the most important delivery I’ve ever done. I don’t take shit like that lightly. It’s serious. You’ve always been around in one way or another. You’ve always looked death in the face through my eyes and you never ran.
I can’t lose you, baby doll. It would tear me apart.”
A sea of emotion swam in her eyes and I couldn’t tell if it was good or bad. It unnerved me. Cecily unraveled me in ways nobody else could. “Can you please say something?” I was already familiar with fear and it had only pumped through me for a short while. I was afraid Cecily would bolt once I opened up to her. Maybe it was too much.
“Bear, I don’t know what to say. I’m scared that if I trust you with my heart you’ll turn cold somewhere along the line.” Hearing her say that stung but it was fair. I couldn’t fault her for feeling that way.
I nodded my head and stood up. “I’m gonna take a shower and try to get some sleep. I have a ton of shit to do tomorrow.”
“Bear, I don’t want you to think I’m pulling away. I’m not. I want you more than anything in the world.”
“It’s okay, baby doll. We’re dealing with a lot right now. We need sleep. The sun is about to come up.” I knew nothing between us would be smooth sailing and it damn sure wouldn’t be worked out in a day. I was okay with that but for the first time in a long time, I was tired and I wanted to rest. Cecily wasn’t going anywhere. She was mine the same as she’d always been. Now, we had to work out the logistics and figure out what it meant for us to belong to each other.
After another night of sleeping like a rock beside Cecily, I woke up refreshed. I looked down and saw a perfect baby doll sleeping in my arms. Flawless cinnamon skin and the fullest lips I’d ever seen. So full that I couldn’t keep away from them. I leaned down to steal a kiss, then I pulled back to look at her. I stared at the way her thick black lashes rested against the apples of her cheeks. The way her high cheekbones were dusted with freckles. The way her cheeks held the secret of perfect dimples that only popped out when she was smiling from ear to ear. I couldn’t imagine a more beautiful picture. The only explanation was that God himself picked up a paintbrush to create Cecily.
My eyes traveled down her slender neck and I watched her pulse. It was barely noticeable beneath her skin but I tracked its faint thump anyway. I noticed her neck was empty. She didn’t have a necklace or anything. I couldn’t have that.
I only had the best things life had to offer from my twenty-four karat gold lighter and cigar case to the rings on my fingers. I carried myself like a king at all times and my queen needed to match me.
I slid out of bed and went to the gold box where my jewelry was. I took down a gold bear paw necklace and held it up. A gold pendant hung on a herringbone chain with a bear paw cut from it. Everyone knew what that bear paw meant. I never wore it because the chain was too thin for me but it was perfect for Cecily.
I climbed back in bed with the chain in my hand and leaned in close to her neck. Close enough to smell the Fruity Pebbles on her skin. Close enough to make my tongue hungry. I pressed my lips against her warm skin first. Then I let my tongue follow. She was so fucking sweet.
My cock was rock hard in seconds. I suppressed a groan in my throat as I scraped my teeth along her collarbones. The sleepy moan that eased from her mouth was so fucking sexy. Her fingers threaded between my locs as I pushed her legs open so I could settle into my new home.
“I was supposed to be putting this chain on you,” I said between kisses and bites to her neck. “But I got distracted.”
“What chain?” She asked, her voice still steeped in sleep.
“This one,” I held it up while I kissed a trail down the front of her throat. It clinked against itself and she took it from my fingers.
“Oh my god. I love this. Can I wear it?” She wiggled from beneath me and I sighed, sitting up.
“Of course. I got it out for you to have because you don’t have on any damn jewelry.”
“So you decided to give me the bear paw huh?” She smirked, clasping it around her neck. “Are you branding me?”
“I was trying to brand you with my dick before you decided you had to put the necklace on right now.”
“I don’t mind if you brand me,” she smirked. The dimple on her left cheek deepened and my heart thumped over and fucking over.
I was helplessly in love.
I wouldn’t be able to stop it if I tried. It was both maddening and comforting. I knew Cecily was it for me. I’d never feel this way about anyone else.
“You seemed to mind last night,” I said, glancing at her.
“Bear, I told you I’m scared to you my heart fully right now. Being in a relationship is new to you. Shit, it’s new to me. I don’t want to be vulnerable only for you to decide it’s not for you. Do you know how that would break me?” She touched my hand then sat on top of me. Those eyes of hers had a line directly to my soul.
“I’m not trying to break you but after realizing I’m scared to lose you I don’t want another minute to go by that you’re not mine…officially.” I couldn’t believe those words belonged to me. I meant them though.
“You’re serious?” She quizzed. Her eyes were a mixture of fear and elation all swimming in one glass of cognac.
“As fuck.” My hands found their forever home on her slender hips then moved up and down her tight curves, strumming her like a harp. “I. Want. You.” I let my hands slip under her tank top to connect with her full tits. I rolled her nipples between my fingers until they were perfect pearls in my grip.
“Bear,” she moaned, rocking her hips against my stiff dick. It stabbed into her through my underwear and her shuddered, bracing herself against my chest. “I can’t get my heart broken by you.”
