Page 109 of Bear
“Thanks, Titan.” Bear touched the ring and sighed. It was a sigh that I knew was laden with so many unspoken words. “You know Ace didn’t have any family. None that would care that he was dead. We were his family.”
“Then we’ll send him off properly. Don’t worry about it.” Bear and Titan slapped hands then he left and we were alone. Tito and Kareema were in the guesthouse and Bear sent Lane home with Mom to take her mind off things.
Bear and I were officially alone.
I took him upstairs to the bedroom and ran a hot shower for him. He was still in a daze over what happened. I’d never seen him like that before. It was like a spell lifting from his mind and he was still in the fog of it all. I was still foggy too.
Fragments of fresh memory kept playing back in my mind. I saw Griffon aim his gun at me and fire without hesitation like I was nothing more than a point to prove. I saw Ace throw himself in front of me at the most pivotal moment, knocking me to the ground. I felt his body jump from the impact of the bullet hitting him in the heart.
I shut my eyes and let silent tears roll down my face while Bear took a shower. Ace was such a good guy. He was my friend. He protected me like he said he would. He was a man of his word until the fucking end and I would never forget that.
When the water shut off, I looked up at Bear walking out of a cloud of steam with a white towel slung low on his hips. He was fucking beautiful. My throat tightened at the sight of him and I was amazed that my body had the capacity to mourn and yearn at the same time.
“Where’s your father?” I asked, clearing my throat. I was trying to take my mind off how good this man in front of me looked.
“At the butcher in the freezer. He wasn’t completely dead when they took him so it adds to the agony I hope his bitch ass felt.” I noted the new ring proudly displayed on Bear’s right hand and my lips lifted in a sad smile. Ace would be honored.
My eyes tracked Bear as he moved around the room putting on lotion and deodorant and grabbing his boxer briefs. “I’m glad you were here tonight, baby doll. I know you’re hurting over Ace.”
“So are you, Bear.”
“I know.” He turned around to face me. “I’m going to carry him forever.” He pointed to Ace’s class ring on his finger then grabbed something off the dresser and walked over to me on the bed. When he leaned over me, I could smell his soap and lotion and it made my thighs pulse. No man should smell that fucking good.
He dangled the bear paw necklace in front of my eyes and smiled. “Cecily, can you please put my chain back on?”
“Yourchain? This ismine.” I laughed a little when he clasped it around my neck. It felt so good to have it back on again.
“Alright, with your bossy ass.” He stared at me for a few silent beats then he said, “You know I love you more than anything in the fucking world?”
“I know.” I nodded. When he caressed my cheek, I held his hand there pressed against my skin because it was the most comforting thing I could imagine. It wasbetterthan anything I could imagine, honestly.
All the noise of the night seemed to fade when Bear and I were connected like that. No words needed to be spoken and even the ringing in my ears from the shot fired that killed Ace started to subside.
“I love you too, Bear.” He leaned down and pressed his lips to mine in a soft kiss that poured butterflies into my core.
“Nothing is perfect but as long as I have you I’m good and I always will be.” He settled between my thighs and I wondered if the heat emanating from me scorched him. “When I thought that motherfucker shot you…” He shook his head unable to form words. “Cecily, I can’t lose you. Ever. I finally have something in my life worth being afraid to lose. I’m going to hold on to you as tight as possible and when the time is right I’m going to give you all the kids you want.”
“Will you give them to me after I graduate?” I asked, rubbing the tip of my nose against his because right then touching him in any respect meant I was sane and not floating through the world alone.
“That sounds like a plan,” he said quietly before kissing me again. I sucked on Bear’s tongue while my hands unknotted the towel at his waist. I tossed it over to the side and draped my arms around his neck. His long fingers inched my panties down my thighs while I wiggled around a bit to help him out.
Once I felt his thick, hard cock pressed against my slick heat, I let out a soft moan. Bear’s teeth found my bottom lip and he squeezed hard but not enough to draw blood.
“Tell me you’re going to be mine forever, baby doll.” He thrust against me and my eyes snapped shut.
“I’ll be yours forever, Bear.” He slipped inside of me and pleasure exploded along my nerves.
“Good girl,” he said, burying himself deeper inside. His movements were hard and intentional but not rushed. He made sure I felt every fucking stroke down to my toes. He spoke sonnets through every push and pull. He recited lyrics in the quiet space between my neck and ear while his kisses melted against my skin.
He didn’t fuck me the way I thought I wanted him to.
He made love to me the way Ineededhim to.
The wayheneeded to.
Every square inch of skin on my body tingled from the way he handled me. I was dripping wet. I felt it trickle from me like a running creek. I heard it in the way our bodies danced together forcing the bedsprings to whine and cry.
He forced electricity into my veins every time he went deeper. I was on top of the world. Bear knew exactly how to touch me. He knew how hard to go and how fast to move. I prayed to God that moments like this would never end.
