Page 93 of Defect
“Yes, Ezra. You’re the first.” She smiled. I took pride in knowing I was also the first one to make her smile the way she did because whenever she smiled at me, shit lit up like a million fireflies. I knew for a fact she only did that for me.
Once we got out of the tub and were lying in bed beside each other, I showed Solana what I had been working on. She slid closer and looked at my phone. “You’re starting an Etsy shop?” She asked, excitedly.
“Yup. To sell my teas. I don’t know how long it’ll take Sun Goddess to get back up and running but in the meantime, I wanted a place to still sell them and make money.”
“That’s brilliant, Ezra. God, you have come such a long way. I hope you realize that.”
“I’m trying. I still can’t shake the whole defect thing. I still feel damaged, you know?” I shrugged my shoulders and looked at her. “I can still hear my mother telling me how fucked up my brain was when I woke up from the coma and I still feel like that’s who I am.” I knew I wasn’t a fucked up defect. I knew I didn’t have brain damage so severe that I would need assistance for the rest of my life but it didn’t stop my mother’s words from echoing in my head.
“Ezra, you need time to let everything unfurl. This is all still so fresh. Don’t try to be perfect and whole right away. Allow yourself time to be broken and unsure.” She held my hand in hers and looked at me like she could see my soul. “When I was around Vince today, I felt like the same scared girl I was when we were together. I felt weak and stupid. I felt like I wasn’t enough to save Malachi. I felt like he needed someone stronger than me because I was a doormat. I felt likeIneeded someone stronger than me.” She rolled her lips between her teeth and continued. “I don’t know if I’ll ever heal all the way from the hell he put me through but I know every day I keep trying and the further away I get from him, the better I become. So what I’m saying is, you need time. You have to get far away from your mother and her abuse before you can adequately assess yourself, Ezra.”
“You’re right. I guess I keep wondering why I still believe the lies even though I know the truth.”
“You know what? I think you should call Doctor Chin and set up those recovery therapy appointments. Talking to someone could help you a lot.”
“You think so?” I quizzed. “I’ve never been to a therapist.”
“There’s a first time for everything. Hey, if you go…I’ll go too because clearly, I still have a lot of shit to work through.”
“It’s a deal then,” I said nodding my head. “So, you wanna tell me where Vince lives now?” I asked.
“Not a fucking chance, Ezra. I don’t want you on the news for killing him and don’t think I don’t know that’s fully what you’d do if given the chance.”
“I’d kill that motherfucker with my bare hands and no regrets.”
“I don’t know if that should have turned me on or not but here we are,” she said with a sigh.
“Are you turned on? Let me see.” I slipped my hand between her thighs and rubbed her pussy with my long fingers. “You are turned on. So you like when I threaten people, huh?”
“Maybe a little.” She climbed on top of me and my dick woke up like someone called it by name. The heat from her cunt radiated against me and I was in heaven.
“You got up there so now I need to watch you perform. Ride that dick.”
“Mine,” she said possessively.
“It’s all yours, Solo.”
“I know and I’m so fucking lucky.”
“Even though I’m only eighteen?” I smirked, grabbing her hips.
“Yes, Ezra. You damn sure don’t fuck like an eighteen-year-old, I’ll tell you that much.” She rolled her hips and I almost came. She controlled my body like a high priestess.
She balanced on her toes, pulled my basketball shorts down, and gripped my dick when it bounced out. “Did I ever tell you that I love your dick, Ezra? It’s so pretty. So long and thick and it stretches me just right.”
“You keep talking like that and I’m going to put a fucking baby in you, Solana.” I couldn’t take the words back after they were in the air.
I said that shit.
I told her I would put a baby in her and I wasn’t even lying.
She didn’t flinch though. Not my sunflower. She smiled and eased her hot little pussy down on top of me until I was deep inside of her.
“Put a baby in me, Ezra,” she said, biting her bottom lip. We were insane. Both of us. We were reckless and impulsive and it felt good as shit. I didn’t have to pretend with her and she damn sure didn’t have to pretend with me.
“You sure you want that?” I asked while she bounced on my dick.
“I want it,” she moaned, pinching and rubbing her chocolate nipples. The show she put on was amazing. I couldn’t tear my eyes away from her. I reached up and grabbed a fistful of her beautiful hair and pulled.
