Page 69 of Margot
She was having sex with him. She probably let him do whatever he wanted to her. I was inadequate all because I didn’t know what the hell was wrong with me.
I don’t remember when I sank to the bedroom floor to cry but I know I cried my heart out. When the tears dried, I stood to my feet and the four walls swam before my eyes.
Once I steadied myself, I grabbed Lennox’s shirt and the notes from Margot then I rushed out of the house without a coat and without making sure my hair was fixed. I didn’t care about anything anymore.
I went to the only person I could think of.
I drove straight to Dr. Adler’s office. My vision was blurry with tears and I have no idea how I managed to get to her office without getting in a wreck but I pulled into the parking lot and grabbed all the damning evidence I had against Lennox. I knew she’d ask me how I knew he was cheating and if I was making it up in my head.
I wasn’t.
My tunnel vision led me to her office clutching a shirt and pieces of loose paper. I must have looked absolutely insane because her secretary gawked at me with wide eyes. She blinked a few times and opened her mouth without letting any words out.
Finally, she spoke, “Um, Mrs. English,” she said louder than necessary.
“I need to see Dr. Adler,” I sniffled, blinking away the remnants of tears.
Dr. Adler’s door swung open and she walked out, smiling. Her green eyes pierced me like they did the first time I saw her. “Sutton, you’re not supposed to be here for another half hour.”
“I’m here now. I need to talk to you.” I moved past her and walked into her office. I didn’t care that she tried to stop me. Nobody was getting me out of that office until I talked to her before Lennox got there.
The second I walked through her office door, I froze.
The blood left my body and I broke into a cold sweat.
Lennox was sitting on the couch already.
“Sutton?” He said standing to his feet. Dr. Adler walked in and shut the door with a heavy sigh.
“What are you doing here?” I shouted, dropping the shirt and papers on the coffee table. Anger and confusion churned at my core. I’d never felt disgusted by Lennox’s presence before but I was right then.
“Sutton, calm down, okay?” He was on his feet and holding his hands out like he knew I was at my breaking point and ready to knock his head off.
“Sutton, hi. Look at me.” Dr. Adler’s voice cut through the fog that started to accumulate in my head. Her green eyes were minimally calming. There was a fire raging inside of me though.
“What brought you here early?” She asked in a soothing voice.
“Him!” I shouted, tossing my hand in Lennox’s direction. “Why ishehere early? This is where you rushed off to after you fucked Margot? You had to confess your sins, Lennox?” I lunged at him in vain because he grabbed me and restrained me.
“Hey, Sutton we can’t talk about anything if you don’t calm down. I refuse to listen if you can’t control your anger. I know it’s tough but you have to try.” Dr. Adler said in a stern tone.
I sucked in air and tried to bring myself down but how could I? I was looking betrayal in the face. “What did I do to deserve this?” I asked Lennox.
“Let’s not talk to Lennox. Talk to me, Sutton. What are these things?” She looked at the items I tossed on the coffee table. I sniffled and picked up the lipstick stained shirt. I thrust it out to her and pointed at the collar.
“This is the shirt he took off when he rushed in and out of the house. He was so fast he didn’t even try to hide it.” My hand shook while I held out the shirt that still smelled like him. Dr. Adler took it in her hand and laid it across her lap.
“Lennox, were you aware that there was lipstick on your collar?” She asked him. I looked up at him for an answer too. I wanted to know.
“No, I didn’t know,” he sighed, rubbing the back of his neck.
“That’s all you have to say? No apology, Lennox? I asked you not to see her anymore when we got back.” I’d never wanted to crawl into a hole so badly before in my life. My entire world was in shambles.
“We’re not talking to Lennox, remember? Why don’t you have a seat, Sutton?” Dr. Adler gestured to the suede couch and I fell onto it reluctantly.
“Would it help if I left the room?” Lennox asked the doctor.
“No, at this point we have to tackle this head-on.”
