Page 48 of Bookgasms
He nods. “Are you ready to talk now, or do you need more time?”
“I’m still a little jumbled up, but I think I’m ready.” I turn to face him, and he quickly follows suit. “I love you more than life itself, you know that, right?”
Jason rolls his eyes. “I’m well aware. Just like I’m aware we both have more love to give.”
I laugh quietly. “That we do. I think it’s time to admit that neither Andrés nor Dani is a passing fad. They’re not just a distraction. They’re meant to be part of this family we’re building.”
“Oh, thank fuck.” Jason’s sigh of relief has me grinning. “I don’t know why I thought you were going to tell me we should walk away from them. Because I definitely don’t want to.”
“We still don’t know that they feel the same way,” I tell him gently. “But I think it’s time we tell them how we feel—what we want with the two of them.”
He nods. “Even if it blows up in our faces, we need to put ourselves out there. We’ll never know how they feel if we don’t try.”
Leaning in, I brush my lips against his. “That’s exactly what I was thinking. I’m really glad we’re on the same page here.”
“We definitely are.” Jason nibbles on his bottom lip. “I think we should start with Dani.”
I hum. “We can do that, but we also need to discuss Maya.”
Jason waves me off. “Of course she’ll be part of this. Dani and Andrés are in love with her, but I don’t want a sexual relationship with her.”
“Neither do I,” I admit. “But I think it’s important that we make it clear that we accept the relationship they have with her—or that they want to have with her. If we don’t, we’ll lose them, and that’s not something I’m willing to do.”
“I guess it’s a good thing we like Maya.” Jason laughs, his smile lighting up his face. He’s just so fucking handsome.
Reaching up, I yank the hair tie from his hair and toss it to the side before sliding my fingers between the silky strands. His brown eyes stare back at me with all the love in the world.
Jason will always be enough for me, even if we never find others we want to share our lives with. He’s everything I could wish for in a partner, and I’m so grateful we found each other. But I’m also ecstatic that we’ve found others we’d like to bring into our family.
Polyamory might not be for everyone, but neither is camming nor being an indie author. The two of us have always lived our lives to a different beat from most, and now all I can do is hope that the other three people we want to call family feel the same way.
“I don’t want to wait,” Jason admits. “Can we invite Dani over tomorrow?”
It seems my husband is just as eager as I am to make Dani ours.
“We can do that. Are you sure we don’t want to talk to all three of them at once? Or even Dani and Andrés together?”
Jason considers me for a moment before shaking his head. “No. I think Dani is the key to the other two accepting this. Without Dani, there will be no Maya. Without Maya and Dani, we have no hope of Andrés wanting to be with us.”
“I’m not sure that’s true, but I get where you’re coming from.” I shake my head with a laugh. “How the hell did we get here? I feel like I’m back in high school, which makes sense in a weird way since I’m almost double Dani’s age.”
“Maybe, but you’re still sexy as hell.” Jason pushes against my chest, and I allow him to lead me backward until my back hitsthe couch as he straddles me. “And you just keep getting sexier and sexier the older you get.”
I feel the heat of a blush rising on my cheeks, but I refuse to look away from my husband. “You have to say that—you married me.”
He scoffs, making a face. “If you think I’m going to lie to you about how you look, then you don’t know me at all.”
When he makes like he’s going to move off me, I grab his hips and yank him back to me. My cock twitches beneath my pants as he rubs against it.
“Mmm, are you ready to go again already? I thought you were an old man?” Jason teases as he leans forward to kiss me, rocking his hips against me.
“I wouldn’t make it very far in this business if I wasn’t really fucking good at holding off orgasms and having a low refractory period. Plus, I always want to get you naked and bury my cock inside you. It’s been like that since the very first moment we met.”
Jason chuckles. “Don’t I know it. I hope that never changes because I really like it when you fuck my ass.”
“Oh, I’m aware.” I kiss him again before sitting up. “But I am getting too old for sex in random places when we have a perfectly good bed just down the hallway.”
He laughs again, climbing off me and helping me to my feet. “On that, I can agree. Beds are much better for our bodies.”
