I snorted a laugh. “You just held me for a good ten minutes while I cried my eyes out and then got me water. You already helped, Krew.”
“How often does this happen?”
“The nightmares?”
“Yes.”
I let out a long sigh. “After he was murdered? Probably once a week. I used to be terrified to sleep at all, knowing that he’d somehow die in my dreams. Sometimes he was stabbed. Sometimes he was thrown off the Nerede wall, just random things. The black magic was a new addition.”
Krew thought on that.
“But I haven’t had a nightmare that bad since coming to the castle, I think. Which is shocking really. It was long overdue.”
Krew gave his head a shake before reaching over to brush a kiss to my temple. “I already trained once tonight, but all of a sudden I feel the need to use my magic again.”
I fluffed my pillow and laid back down, wondering how long it was going to take me to get back to sleep this time. Likely an hour or more.
Krew laid beside me but moved away for a moment. I turned to look at him wondering why, when I saw the magic coming from his hand.
His wolf shaped magic slowly left his hand and began roaming about the air in the room. The navy wolf lazily ran in a random path, leaving tiny orbs of magic beneath its paws. It was like the wolf was making stars for us.
I gasped. “It’s beautiful.”
He reached for me but then hesitated. He had to finish sending his wolf whatever directions through his palm before he could touch me again.
I sighed as I wondered what would ever happen if Krew needed to protect me from something. He couldn’t touch me and actively use magic, even if it was only to my surroundings. But any enemy who knew that would have a huge advantage over us.
Unless I felt brave enough to become bonded to Krew and have a bit of magic myself. And that was assuming it would even work since I had Iron Will. But if it did work, if I took only a drop, could he touch me and use magic at the same time then?
And how did we get here anyway? One minute I was faking it with Krew to get my freedom. Now was I honestly considering becoming bonded to Krew if it would help the disloyal take down his father? This was insane. But on the other hand, would I ever be able to walk out of this castle into my freedom knowing what Krew and Keir were going to do?
No.
Would I ever even be able to leave this castle with how my feelings for Krew were growing at an exponential rate?
Also probably no.And that terrified me.
“What’s going on in that cunning head of yours, love?” Krew asked me as his wolf kept creating stars for us.
I didn’t look him in the eyes. Owen was right, I was a horrible liar. And if Krew really knew that I was even remotely considering bonding with him, he’d start being more persuasive and logical about it. I just wanted to figure it out on my own. So I told him as much of the truth as I could. “Just trying to figure out a way to keep everyone safe.”
Krew pressed his lips to my forehead. “I’ll always do everything in my power to keep you safe, Jorah.”
I turned to kiss him on the lips. “That’s what I’m afraid of.”
CHAPTER26
“The man dressed as a lion,” Molly exclaimed to the left of me. “Truly there is no contest.”
We hadn’t gotten together out of the public eye in so long that, naturally, the conversation amongst us women eventually turned to the scandalous dancer costumes from Hallows’ Eve.
“What about the man dressed as the eagle?” Nara argued. “Did you see his wings? It made his whole chest region look quite massive.”
Molly tilted her head downward. “And is that the only region you were admiring?”
Nara gave a guilty shrug. “Well no. Definitely not with the amount of skin that was showing.”
I giggled. And across the table from me even Gwen was laughing. Sometimes I really missed the common rooms hours. Our dear Molly pretended offense on inappropriate topics, yet conveniently thrived on them too.