"I wouldn't forgive me if I were you," he said brokenly. "But I really am so, so sorry. If you want to be with my pack and not with me, I won't stand in your way. You can have them and I'll go or stay, whatever you want."
"You'd leave your pack to let them be happy with me?"
"I would." He turned tearful eyes to me. "I know I can't fix this. But you all deserve the happiness you can have together."
"Thank you, River."
Pulling the blank ticket out of my pocket, I lifted it to show him. "I'm not going anywhere."
Chapter 34
Home
"You little . . ." Orion laughed. "What was all this for?"
"To see if you would really let me leave. I can't stay with anyone who would hold me captive," I told him. "You all passed the test. Even you, Kade."
Kade looked relieved as he picked me up, letting my legs wrap around his waist. "Don't ever do that to me again."
"I won't need to. But thank you for letting me leave even when you really, really didn't want to."
He didn't respond with words, just a deepening kiss that kept going until River suggested we head home.
"Where is home?" I asked.
Kade carried me back to the SUV. "In Newville, same as the ORC," he said. "But we live on the outskirts."
"If you don't like the place, we're not very attached," Archer added. "We can move to a more suitable location."
"I haven't even seen it yet," I laughed. "I'm sure it's fine."
The drive back was calmer. Everyone was in a better mood now that they weren't worrying about my leaving. For my part,I was exhausted. Curling up on Kade's lap, I fell asleep, only waking when the vehicle stopped.
"We're home," Kade whispered, rubbing my back gently.
"Okay." I blearily opened my eyes and looked around. We were in a garage that looked pretty typical, with shelves along three walls, full of boxes, tools and assorted other stuff.
Kade set me down on the floor as River unlocked the door into the house. "It's not a mansion, but it works for us."
Inside, we passed through a laundry room and into a hallway that led to the front door. Directly across from the laundry was the kitchen, which opened into the living room.
River showed me the spaces, while the rest of the guys trailed behind. Overall, the house was nice, but it was sparsely decorated and had mismatched chairs and curtains. There was no doubt that four bachelors lived here.
We toured the downstairs bathroom and the guest room, then headed upstairs.
"There's actually a nest built into the master bedroom, so you can have that," River told me. "This room is mine, the next one is Archer's and across from us we have Orion and Kade."
At the end of the upstairs hall was the master bedroom, which they'd been using as a gym and storage. Boxes were piled along the walls and the center of the room featured a treadmill, a stationary bike, and a rowing machine, with racks of weights against the far wall.
"Take a look at the nest. We can clear it out for you," Archer suggested, leading me between gym equipment to the door leading into the nest.
I peeked in and found it was full of random junk. The shape was nice, though and it was fairly low, giving me the impression of an enclosed cave-like space. A bathroom led off the bedroom and the nest, all integrated.
"It's nice, but there's a lot of stuff in there."
"You'll have to share with one of us," Kade said. "I get dibs."
"You can't dibs a person, Kade." Archer ran his hand through his hair, messing it up even more. "Seriously."