"Hey," he said and put his hand on the side of my face. "Is everything okay?" He was so sweet. And it made my stomach churn even more.
"You don't do relationships."
He sighed and put his hands behind his head. He stared at me for a second before saying, "I haven't in a long time, no."
"So what does that make me?"
He smiled. "Mine."
I laughed. "Seriously, Mason, what are we doing?"
"Enjoying each other's company."
"Right." I smiled but I felt like crying. Right now we were enjoying each other's company. And when that changed, we were done. When he decided I wasn't fun anymore. I liked when he called me his. I liked the way that sounded way too much.
"Bee, I really like you."
"I really like you too."
He reached up and tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear. "Then what's the problem?"
"Are you going to get bored with me?" As soon as I said it, I regretted it. I sounded so childish. Of course nothing lasted forever. I knew that better than anyone. I wasn't sure what I even meant with that question. He'd get bored with me eventually, just like Patrick. I wasn't enough.
"That's what you're worried about?"
"I've just never done anything like this before."
"Like this?" He raised his eyebrow at me. "What do you think we're doing?"
I laughed. "I don't know." I put my hand on his hard chest. I just needed to ask him. "Are you seeing anyone else?"
"No."
"So those clubs..."
"I already told you. I haven't been to one since I've met you. You give me everything that I need."
Do I give him everything he needs?How can I, if I don't know what those places are?Is it just sex? Is it shows? Is it more than that? "Can you take me to one?"
"What?" He lowered his eyebrows.
"To one of those places? So I can see it?"
"I'm done, okay? I don't need that anymore. I don't need the money. I've been approaching everything wrong. I just need a big client."
"For the ad agency? Or for the..."
"The ad agency."
"Please, Mason. I want to understand."
He frowned. "Do you trust me?"
I searched his face.Do I?"I mean...do you still send people to them? For money?"
"I'm going to stop. Bee, you have to understand..."
"I need to see it. I need to see what Patrick wanted instead of me. I need to see why you don't do relationships. I need to see what's so great about this thing that I know nothing about."I need to know why I'm never enough.